slow reader...

head hurts big time but the application i'm installing is still 11% from completing... so to kill time, instead of "working" blog na lang!

Books were on sale at Powerbooks (huh?) and being the frugal person that I am I decided to just get Night. You see the last time I bought a book for myself was November of last year! *gasp* that long already... and even after 5 months this book is still a work in progress:

I'm getting there though maybe a few more months! kidding! I actually use this book to make me fall asleep for those "sleepless" nights... The only other book (of course of the few books I've read or attempted to read so far) which I haven't been able to finish till now (more of have no intention to finish) is Foucault's Pendulum. Although, I must say I liked Eco's other book The Name of the Rose but anyway, I am digressing. Unfortunately for me, Night is currentlysold out and they have this reservation list already (so much for planning to raid other Powerbooks outlets). So, I ended up getting these instead:

This is quite a splurge already for me since I am not really a bookworm (hello january, jeff, bowdy???!!!) but then again these will probably last me until say november?hahaha :D Until then, Night would have to wait. Good luck to me on finishing all these especially The God of Small Things (must finish each one!)!

if this was true, i should be getting ready to tie the knot by now!!! :p

not!!! hahahaha :))

anyway, bored lang... and since i'm not a fan of friendster dito na lang... hehehe

[ ] I know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] I keep track of dates using a calendar.
[ ] I own more than one credit card.
[ ] I know how to change the oil in my dads car.
[ ] I do my own laundry.
[x] I vote every election.(uh once pa lang?)
[ ] I can cook for myself.
[ ] I think politics are exciting.
[ ] I balance my checkbook.
[x] My parents have better things to say than my friends.

total: 3

[ ] I show up for school/college/workevery day early. >>> used to be very punctual... mejo na lang! :D
[x] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse.
[ ] I've never gotten a detention.
[x] I have never smoked a cigarette.
[ ] I have never gotten completely trashed.
[ ] I have forgotten my own birthday at least once.
[x] I like to take walks by myself.
[x] I've watched talk shows.
[x] I know what 'credibility' means without looking it up.
[ ]I drink coffee at least once a week.
total: 5

[x] I know how to do the dishes
[x] I can count to 10 in anotherlanguage.>>>(indio???)
[x] When I say I'm going to dosomething I do it
[x] My parents trust me.>>>strict lang talaga??? :p
[ ] I can mow the lawn.
[ ] I can make adults laugh without being stupid.
[ ] I remember to water the plants.
[x] I study when I have to.
[x] I pay attention at school/college.
[ ] I remember to feed my pets.>>i don't have one!

total: 6

[x] I can spell 'experience' without looking it up
[ ] I work out on a regular basis. >>> i should if i want to stay in shape!!!!!
[x] I clean up my own mess.
[ ] The people at Starbucks know me by name.
[ ] my favorite kind of food is takeout.
[x] I have gained weight sincemiddle/high school.
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get caffeine.
[ ] I cant go out of the store without getting something I don't need.
[ ] I understand political jokes the first time they are said. >>> joyce=slow!
[x] I can type quickly. >>define quickly???

total: 4

[ ] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour.
[ ] My only friends are from my place of employment.
[ ] I have been to a tupperware party >> no idea, ano to??? :D
[ ] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 or have a job.
[ ] I have more bills than I can pay.
[ ] Most of my friends are older than Iam.
[x] I can say no to staying out all night. >>> cinderella is that you???
[x] I use the internet every day.>>> i have to?
[x] My wardrobe hasn't changed in awhile.
[x] I can read a book and actually finish it.

total:4

add up all the number and repost thisas: MY MARRiAGE AGE iS 22 (score)

scorching summer heat--Taal style

when: MARCH 26, 2007
where: TAAL
who: GI, JI, JOYCE, MIKE, JC, BOWDY, PAOLO
coming soon: pinatubo, EK, MOA (skating), Corregidor, Taal take 2????
(side note: lakwatsa galore! mapapagalitan na ako nito pag nagkataon! hahaha may sorsogon/bicol, laguna, bangkok pa with college friends! hahaha :p pro sana matuloy and makajoin ako hehehe....)

we conquered Taal! well at least they did! hahaha :p

"Other people's opinion of you doesn't have to become your reality. Those who follow the crowd usually get lost in it. I don't know the key to success, but one key to failure is to please everyone. So why waste time thinking about what others will tell you. Instead, do what makes you happy." >>> wow, that makes sense especially to me... one i should keep in mind... toink!

not so random words...

• mind games
• perfect storm
• character
• one voice
• triangle
• coffee talk
• goodbye
• comfort zone
• octagon

oh well...

Gosh! i think i should go back to the salon and give another round of bigger tip to the one who cut my hair! i never heard that many comments on my new 'do! [sorry no pictures yet...]i guess they just got tired of my long hair... change is good...

but not always... and yet you have to welcome and embrace them... so that you can grow as a person and experience life at its fullest...

to my friend, congrats... it's been nice knowing you. whatever happens i'm happy for you... carpe diem! listen to your heart and mind... let your soul talk to God... wish you all the best...

and as much as i would want to deny this... i'm on the verge of feeling sorry for myself... being lost, hopeless, pressured, and depressed... whoever said life would be easy? how would you know gain from pain if you have not experienced both...

it's downhill from here again for me... damn, i need an upper (aka something to lift my spirits)!

like i always say, "oh well..."

thank God for friends...

Panagbenga 2007 with College Friends
(sa uulitin!)
pics from Atan's site(and camera too!) =)

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crushed

so what is this trying to tell me? am i stuck here?

>>>edit: then again, i guess not! it's a win-win situation i just have to weigh my options carefully and think hard about the decision I would make... what makes me happy, satisfied, contented and proud... and if i'm ready to face the consequences... of course, time, effort, determination, conviction, principle, and blessing are essential... no easy way out...

things are looking good... the more the merrier! and yeah, count me in! sabi nga ni atan, it's a milestone! true! haha! :D giddy! giddy! now I have something to think about to get me through this week... s0 hopefully less stress... and less "negative energy"...

why do all good things come to an end?...

half of the week was hard... so hard i had a meltdown...
so yeah, bowdy's right, it does feel like a Golden Cage...
hopefully, i won't be THAT emotional again... it's a struggle... but I'm optimistic that one day I'll be able to overcome this...

it has come to a point where I pretty much don't care about the person anymore... and what he'd feel or others would think... there's a saying in our organization back in college before, "huwag kang mang-aapak pero huwag kang magpapatapak"... i don't think by being like this or feeling like this i'm already offending the person... there's just this what you call as a limit on what a person can take... I've reached that limit and i think he's gone too far... and that you've given him all the chance you can to understand and hope that he'll treat you maybe not nicely at least fairly... sabi nga ni January, tiis pa and tiis lang... hopefully, next week I'll be detached from all these negative emotions... para deadma na lang... that week maybe sort of brought out the worst in me... it was not intentional, and i sincerely hope that I won't be marked for life because of it... yeah, I'm still young and have so much to learn...

on the other hand, there's still no news which adds to my sadness... I'm wishing, hoping, praying for the best...

if plans push through, the weekend ahead might help...

better days...

take away the bitterness...
take away the hurt...
admire the sunset
glow in the sunrise
everything happens for a reason...
and we should embrace, conquer
not be imprisoned by it...
whatever the reason...
add them all together
and you have better days...
bliss!

**hey look at the sun, it's shining brightly on my life**

everything happens for a reason. It makes you:
1. appreciate what you have
2. rethink your goals
3. reevaluate your priorities
4. redefine your standards
5. aim higher!
Reach for the stars!

what next?

my take on my current state:

Lord, please show me the way...

savoring the stress-free weekend...

weekends should really be like this... though not easy on the purse

first stop: MOA day with Jake, JP, Cy, Cha and Katre... think: dinner, Night at the museum, impromptu ice skating and coffee afterwards in Greenbelt... priceless!!!! major laugh trip with bits of serious convo here and there... BUT being the Cinderella/KJ aka 'kill joyce' that I am, i had to excuse myself from subjecting myself to humiliation when it was red box time which lasted until the following day... too bad I couldn't join (when will I ever? that's why I gotta seriously think about moving out or relocating perhaps?)... There were quite a number missing in attendance but it sure feels great to be with the 'gang' again, (got the term from Jake). Hopefully on the next "gimik" I'll be able to join again!


ice skating was one unplanned activity but a 'cool' one at that! 'twas actually my second time only since like 1st or 2nd year of college! that LONG already!!! wasn't able to bring the camera on the ice so I'm just going to borrow pics taken by Cy in his phone when he uploads them. Somehow, the three pics that I have don't even come close to illustrating what happened on the ice!!! haha


sidenote: guys, if you haven't you should watch Night at the Museum... major laugh trip! but it could also be that we were just so stressed out with "work" that found even the tiniest of things in the movie as very funny. :p


second stop: Lunch at Leslie's Tagaytay. I have promised the family that I'll treat them for Lunch or dinner at Leslie's since like December of last year! Due to our hectic schedules which somehow do not seem to match it has been postponed indefinitely. I've been wanting to get the family to go to Tagaytay again since it's been so long that we've been to Tagaytay as a family. I was actually motivated during Erik's visit last year when I saw that so much has changed since I've been there last. Leslie's a start, maybe when dad goes to Sonia's this weekend he can then treat us there too next time. we were supposed to go there with my cousin but unfortunately, she was in the province... maybe next time :) Lunch was good but again not on the budget... but it's enough that they appreciated the fact that we went to Tagaytay to eat Lunch! ahaha :D kidding aside, my mom couldn't agree more on the positive changes. She could still remember the 'kubo-kubo' by the road before in order to get a good view of the Taal Lake/volcano... ooopppssssss.... all of a sudden I remember someone with the mere mention of Taal!
some pics:


weekends should be like this... at least once in a while... refreshing...

cold...

..::lost in space::..
..::uninspired::..
..::show me the way out::..

~prevailing thought these past days: sawa na ako... hindi na ako masaya...~

..::the stars winked::..

~pakner ley's in sing na pala... and i can only conclude na he's in the industry...major inggit!!!~

....when will it be me?....

(*finally a post*)

came from my cousin's wedding today where I was a cord sponsor...(didn't bring my camera along so no instant pictures). it was a simple wedding but a meaningful one just the same... and i had to try different means to keep me from shedding tears... i mean i totally can feel the whole ambiance and all... during the wedding march though no one was actually crying, and though ate is already at the "prime" age, feel na feel ko yung moment... maluha-luha ako... prang ang surreal ng lahat...

my thoughts:
~when will it be me?.................................................................................
i guess that sums it all up... though i would say to myself, one day i wanna do the same... but if there's nobody, then that's just too bad... so each day i go on hoping...

current addictions:
princess hours! ehehe :D