again

yep, im at it again. C-R-A-M-M-I-N-G! i know, ang nerdy ng dating coz hello xmas vaca ngaun. pro have to force myself into acad mode na, otherwise sleepless nights na naman. at least now have the chance na bumawi ng tulog. it's 4:30 am na!!! still a lot more to do. all sorts of stuff: school, chores, social, eat, sleep, rest etc. haay... M.I. A. na naman ako mamya sa lakad ng HS friends ko. haay... sad.

pasko na naman

yep, it's xmas once again. sobrang bilis. kinda different for us this year. we celebrated a lil early(Dec. 22 to be exact) coz alis dad ko. sobrang hectic tuloy, after eng'g week xmas rush naman. nakabili naman ako gifts, pro except for the two cd's i purchased wla pa tlaga akong nabili for me-self. hindi kasi ako pede sa rush and dami tao. shado choosy/arte.hehe:) anyway, aga celeb namin coz my dad's not gonna spend christmas and new year with us. which effectively makes me the family driver. hehe:) (kakapagod!am required pa to wake up early!waaah) di bale, may kapalit naman to(sana). sna in the form of a fossil watch, issey miyake, and discman.(hirit pa tsaka new bracelet for my other Fossil watch. ung plastic type kasi xa e mejo faded na. pro ung mismong watch ok pa. sayang naman.) :) anyway, gotta rush. it's almost 12 midnight. (Christmas eve) and marami pa akong dapat batiin. sa iyong nagbabasa nito, merry christmas.:)

last night

at natapos na rin ang eng'g week 2004. gaya ng inisip ko hindi matatapos ang linggong ito ng hindi ako mamaos. for the sake of the org nga naman oo! our candidate, maella jabongga was great! though he este she pla(miss engg nga) didn't receive any award pra sakin the best pa rin xa. proud pa rin ako sa kanya coz no joke nmn ang sumali sa miss eng'g. besides ang ganda nya!!!!!!!!!sobra!kakain-love nga e. hehe:) kakatibo!hehe:) FYI:ang miss eng'g ay pa-contest ng mga tunay na lalaki --->bawal bading! na mag-cross dress at mag-asal babae beauty contest style. ultimo swimsuit meron. o db?:) anyway, at kahit pagod at puyat ang mga tao dahil sa pag-career sa EWOC---pagsali sa minor events, pagpunta sa mga night events at ang sumisingit na academics(hehe), na sobrang nakaka-low batt e sige pa rin sa pag-cheer!yan ang eng'g week. either BSEng'g week ka at lahat ay sasalihan mo na pumapasok ka lang para maglaro sa kung anu-ano or studyante pa rin na may org na tinatantiya kung kailan aabsent at hindi pra maglaro.hehe:) bukod sa nakakadrain ng energy, nakakabutas din ng bulsa. pro kahit na, k lang nmn kasi enjoy naman. and i am really proud of my org because though we missed two night events(indakan and awitan) we were still able to make it to 6th place from 9th place last year! and to think that the ALCHEMES is way too young compared to the other orgs being just almost six years old while the others were like 50, 69 etc. that's the spirit. Our motto for the Eng'g week was ALCHEMES HAVE FUN and we did. there were instances though na napikon kami and medyo "nakipag-away" pro ayos na. nacorrect na ang mali. Still a lot of room for improvement, and talo pa rin kami sa tao kasi sobrang multi-tasking ang ibang mems wag lang madefault sa ibang events. pro it's ok, we're learning and growing. i think that this year's eng'g week performance is some sort of a sign of the potential of ALCHEMES. of course, for the other orgs it doesn't matter kung nasa top ten ka o hindi. hindi hayok kung baga. pro as to whether or not career ulit ang eng'g week next year depends if someone objects kasi sa nakikita ko ngayon, career ulit xa.:)

matapos pla ang announcement ng top ten, sumama muna ako sa orgmates ko sa bonding session. wla lang hehe:) came home mga 3am na... nasabihan ako... hay salamat hindi na sermon ngaun. buti naman mejo nagluluwag na ng konti.:)

finally decided, given the chance ok lang sakin to run for office sa student council. dati i had doubts kasi mej hindi maganda performance ko last sem and tsaka feeling ko matatalo ako. pro ngaun nagbago na oultook ko, k lang kahit matalo ako at least i tried. charge to experience kumbaga. shado kasi ako sigurista, gusto ko ung sasalihan ko kailangan i perform well... ito ang naidudulot ng or ko sa akin - growth, experience, camaraderie, support, a family in UP. tas ang adviser namin - Sir Nato - sobrang supportive, prang kids nya kami. :)
something came up here at home...napaiyak ako... na-hurt ako... i hope he grows... i hope na ung pain na na-feel ko e maalala ko pra i won't cause the same kind of pain kina mama...

ChRisTmaS UpDate: sTill cUtE but yEt to MakE tHat ChRisTmaS ShopPinG... wonder f i HaV the TiMe?... LanTeRn PaRade and Miss Eng'g tomorrow. gOnnA be HoMe laTe aGaiN.hehe:p actuallY maskiPaps toDaY pro umUwi na q coz giNaGabi na q ng hUsTo and i sTiLL have to FinisH ung Take-hOme ExaM sa ChE 123. it's already past 1 at aba, wla pa rin ResuLt...hmmm...hOpe ok, pRa 6th Pa rin StanDing nmin.:p LasT Day na Ng eng'g wEek tom. tOdo na iTo!:) next year, dapat sali na sa indakan and awitan. ako sama na q sa relay ng swimming (no more excuses. hehe). mag-maski kaya aq ulit?hmmmm... hehe:) ObLaTiOn RuN diN pLa tom, never pa aq nkaPanood... hehe:) naKuhA pla si JaKe na mag-OJT sa Beijing. wow!!!:)

babblings

bitter???????????

stupid mouse!--and now i have to start from scratch again. done posting kanina e na-delete. ulit!

just got home around 1:30am. was the first main event for engg week - smoker's nyt. "babuyan ng orgs".... oh well, dami kong sentiments... basta, sobrang love ko tong org na to!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to the extent na wasn't able to go home immediately,even after the event's winners were announced before 12am... kasi was terribly sad, kinailangan magpalipas. hehe:)

Nikki's post sa yahoogroups: >peram Nikki ha?:)
Congratulations to usWe lost but we wonbecause people congratulate us although we didn't baganythingbecause it's their loss that they didn't listen or letanyone else listen to what we had to saybecause we know that we're not as shallow as everyoneelsebecause we had fun dancing like crazy onstage... andeven out on the roadbecause we have the best people to be affiliated with.I don't know how many times we've shouted this allweek... but... it still feels nice to remember usshouting..."UP ALCHEMES: Make a difference. Break free."

come to think of it, there just maybe something far greater waiting for us...(in His time) besides, tama sila coz somehow we should be thankful kasi 1) may pumansin sa performance natin, and 2)threatened sila which only goes to show na people have to be careful kasi "lampayatot man pro deadly to" MAY LABAN 'TO! it's possible din nmn na they want us to make ganti na, but we can't do that. that's not our kind of game. it's the reason, why i joined alchemes in the first place. ang tanong hanggang kailan magtitimpi?sometimes, one just have to cry foul!!and say, what the?PU*TAN**NA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hmmm... nakaalmost 20 na malutong na ganyan ngawa ko today e!akalain mo!hehe:)but as the other members said, yes it's natural to feel bad but leave all of it in this night and do what needs to be done...syeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet!love ko toh!:)

ok lang sigurong matalo, if naiparating mo ung mensahe mo and then ok hindi nila type/gets. pro ang hindi maiparating, mej iba ata un. anyway, oh well. nuff said, need to sleep na rin thus leave this here... **pro kung sa bagay, babuyan really is the name of the game. pro it's up to us whether to join or not. pro ika nga e, make a difference, break free db?**

halley, i feel ur sadness and disappointment. k lng yan, buddy. alchemes is more than just an org, it's family kaya don't fret pare-pareho tayong nalungkot. and malamang with an even greater drive and conviction to do better!:) byron, kaya yan!bilib pa rin ako sau no matter what!:) bhodz, kat, fantastic fillers, 8 superheroes, props, technicals! astig pa rin kaio!!!!!!!!!!:) mark, buddy and argel pla thanks ha?senxa sa abala and kung kulit ko... hehe:)

more posts to come... ryt now, im out. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... beauty rest pra study nmn sa es12.:)

awitan blues

excited ako for the upcoming engg week! pro mixed emotions ako now coz nabalitaan ko na back-out na pla kami for awitan. nalulungkot ako for khulz coz feeling ko nahirapan xa and wla man lang xang nakuhang motivation from the awitan people... siguro it's not right for me to say anything like sayang, kasi i can't or did not do anything e. past weeks wla tlaga akong natulong sa preparation for engg week. much as i want to offer myself, i'm not qualified - talented(hindi ako marunong kumanta), creative enough (magmake-up/bihis etc.) enough pra maging head. hanggang sa offer lang siguro ng help. yes, there's nothing wrong with "HAVE FUN" as our new battlecry but does that also mean that our org is giving up the fight to get into the top ten? does that mean that since we are not required to perform well in the activities we are not going to give it our best shot? or is this some sort of way of relieving ourselves from the pressure left by last year's engg week performance? i dare hope not... the potential is still there. i just hope the willingness to participate still is... manalo, matalo love ko pa rin 'tong org ko!Go UP Alchemes!(",) pro kung sa bagay hindi lang nmn through engg week masusukat ang galing ng isang org e!basta go lang ng go!no sense in crying over spilled milk nga db?(",) kaya............... ALCHEMES HAVE FUN....(",)

wala lang

lumipas na nmn ang ilang araw ng hindi ko man lang nagawang simulan basahin ang mga research materials ko for my ChE 140 paper. sa wednesday na ang consultation which accounts for 5% of our final grade... hindi na talaga ako siguro ganun ka-grade conscious ngaun otherwise i wouldn't have time to "waste" for blog... waaah... sobrang expert na ata ako sa cramming!hehe:) nararamdaman ko na todo cramming na nmn ito ng tuesday night... oh well ganun talaga... nawili kasi sa paglalaro ng word factory(ako lagi kasi panalo vs. sa mom and sis ko hehe) at sa panonood sa aking kapatid na maglaro ng FF9(ulit!) hehe:)

kakaawa ung mga nasalanta ng bagyo...wish i cud have done something than just watch the news...