puh-lease....

and i thought you got the message! it's so not cute and funny anymore! it's really getting on my nerves! sorry but i think i somehow need to be a little harsh since my indifference and/or indirect hints seems to be not working at all! care to know why i hid this blog for some time before and why i refrain from making posts or why i deleted the archives section? go figure! i'm on the verge of being bitchy! really... so please just stop!

snapshots...c/o she

the girls without mitch...

sinong lasing?:D kamusta naman ang lollipop?:D

isa jan lasing, ung dalawa antok lang talaga!:D

sa uulitin!:D nabitin ako! onti lang nainom ko! ehehe:D

issues...

issues now abound in the yahoogroups just because of two people who dared post their opinions and feelings... i'm not saying their wrong in doing so, but i hope that whatever feelings it will stir among the alumni and the members it will all lead towards improvement of the organization for the better...

sarap sana umepal kaso wag na lng, after all madami din kasi aq nasagasaan na damdamin nung engg week... nde q man kilala kung sinu-sino, alam q meron. naging super sungit and init ulo din kasi aq... nakakalungkot din na may mga sakripisyo kang ginawa pro mararamdaman mo na wala plang naka-appreciate nito... pro d bale ginawa q naman ang mga iyon pra sa org... kasi naramdaman q na kailangan may maibahagi aq...*sigh*

was there any pressure for us to win in the events that we played? i'd like to think there wasn't. it was on maintaining the engg week standing of last year. the pressure came from the fact that we are now a bigger family and that would mean a lot of potential waiting to be harnessed. but the problem is, it was not maximized but utilized just the same. maybe a lot of us expected a lot. we thought we were a strong organization that could outdo what we did last year but two days or so and a lot of default games after we thought boy were we wrong... maybe it just wasn't for us and we have to channel our energies to something else...

i personally felt that we got left behind by mss, who saw our performance last year. as someone i know from mss said, "tingnan mo nga ang alchemes kasing edad lang natin yan pro pang-6 sila last year." didn't we in a way inspire them or served as a benchmark?

bakit naghahanap ng tao? kasi sa 130++ na members na nasubmit as roster, hirap maghanap tuwing umaga... daming default games... what's the problem with the default games? the money that was used for registration! hindi na nga maganda ang financial status may masasayang pa na pera. siguro may pagkakamali rin ang engg week comm or execomm ng org. siguro dapat bago sila nagregister tinanong muna nila ang mga taong isusulat nila kung willing sila. at least kung madefault man at wala namang klase ung taong kasali walang rason kung bakit hindi nila bayaran ang pinangregister dun db? hindi naman ganun kayaman ang org... siguro bago nila sinumbit ang 130++ members sa esc dapat tinanong muna nila ang mga ito kung ok lang ba tlaga sa kanila na kahit papaano ay dumaan ng tambayan at lumahok sa mga laro o kaya'y manood man lang... hindi biro ang 130++ na numero, ayon sa record pangatlo o pang-apat tayo sa may pinakamaraming miyembro...

last year, oo sobrang saya talaga. ngayon pagod ekek... pro pansinin natin, walang awitan last year, walang indakan... may awitan sana kaso nagka-issue din... sino ang mga nasa indakan, sino ang mga nasa awitan ngayon?...

i commend the kids who were given lots of responsibilities, you did well considering that there should have been a senior to guide you.

mga pagmuni-muni

First and foremost, CONGRATULATIONS to jules and the rest of the AWITAN pips! i am so proud and happy for you guys!thank you for sharing whatever gifts you have...

while on my way home last nyt, a lot of stuff ran through my head... and before i knew it i was crying... because of fatigue, of stress, of sadness, and because maybe iyakin lang talaga ako...

hindi naman siguro kaila sa atin lalo na sa mga bibong members na iba ang engg week na ito... puno ng negative emotions... salamat na lng sa magagandang balita tulad ng sa AWITAN... pro sa totoo lng kahit aq kagabi natakot na kahit un ay ipagkait sa atin... ewan ko ba pro kagabi pakiramdam q ay pinagkakaitan Niya tayo... malungkot ako sa mga nangyayari...

hindi naman sa umaasa aq na mag-top tayo sa engg week... hindi naman talaga sukatan iyon ng galing ng isang organisasyon at ng mga miyembro... o hindi nga ba? hindi ba't kahit papaano masasalamin pa rin nito kung paano magbalanse ang mga tao ng kanilang oras, magpagalaw ng mga tao, maging organisado... nasaan na ang 100++ na members? hanggang numero lng ba tayo? kung ganoon ano ang halaga ng ALCHEMES sa iba sa atin, matatambayan para hindi loner? training ground para mapaganda ang resume? libreng meryenda o tanghalian?

let us not forget that if not for the members of this organization who or what will give "UP ALCHEMES" its prestige, its reputation... anong kwenta ng UP ALCHEMES sa resume kung walang mga proyekto ito? mga miyembrong naglilingkod dito, mga miyembrong isinasaalang-alang ang pangalan ng organisasyon...

pro nakakalungkot din na may mga iba sa atin na sinasabi nila mahal nila ang organisasyon, pro hanggang dun lng... hindi ba nila nakikita at nararamdaman na kailangan ng organisasyon ang tulong nila... ang pagmamahal ba ay hanggang sa dahil napapakinang ka ng organisasyon? o may katumbas ding itong pagmamalasakit sa kanya?

dumating na sa puntong nagsusumbatan na, nagsusukatan na, nagsisisihan na... hindi maiiwasan, hindi mo masisisi lalo na ang mga pagod na... kasi naman, kung tulong-tulong at sama-sama wala namang talagang mabigat hindi ba? ang importante may nagawa ka na... kung sinisisi ka pro alam m naman na ngawa m0 na ang bahagi mo o ang kaya mo, pabayaan mo sila! hindi naman sinasabi na mawala na ang UP mula sa UP ALCHEMES pro kung may maibabahagi ka, sana huwag ipagdamot... itanong natin sa ating sarili, mahal ko ba ang org na ito? may nagawa na ba ako? may magagawa pa ba ako?

nangongonsensya ba ako? namimilit ba ako? hindi po... gusto ko lng sabihin ang mga saloobin ko... kung tinamaan ka, mabuti, nakakaramdam ka pa... kung hindi, wala ka lang marahil pakialam o magkaiba tau ng pananaw... sapagkat hindi naman dahil sa nasa iisa taung bubong ay kinakailangang pare-pareho ang takbo ng ating pag-iisip...

sabi ko sa ating presidente, magalit ka na kaya o kaya'y may umiyak na satin sa harap nila... ngunit dali ko itong binawi... bakit? pra saan, para manlimos ng awa? pra may mapagtsismisan ang iba? pra magbulung-bulongan tayo... kailangan pa bang humantong sa ganoon? besides, even if someone cries, only a handful will care, be driven to work... the rest they will feel sorry, sympathize for a while, and then poof!

nakakalungkot na nagkakaganito tayo bilang isang pamilya... may lumulutang pa na mga paksyon... bakit ganun? personal glory? wag naman sana...

have fun... hindi na yan ang nangyayari... mediocre na ang performance natin, nakukuntento na tayo dun kahit na alam natin sa ating mga sarili na higit pa tayo dun! nadedeactivate na ang marami sa atin...

hanga ako kina ate iris, ate jone, nagawa nilang pagsabayin... alam ko na marami akong pagkukulang din... patalo pa ako sa mga nasalihan ko kahapon... hirap pa akong magcommit sa mga bagay-bagay...marami na rin akong hindi alam sa mga nangyayari at lahat ng ito'y batay lamang sa katiting na alam ko... hanga ako kina jose, paul, gemma, ryan, nina, mga GC kung tutuusin pro nung engg week napaka-visible nila...magaling lang talaga sila...

sa mga new mems na napasabak agad, sana huwag kayong mapagod...
sa mga kumukulo ang dugo sa kabila, hinay lang... sana maintindahan ninyo ang puntong, hindi natin kinakailangang makipagsabayan sa pambababoy nila... dun tayo sa rason, sa prinsipyo. wag na lang natin sila pansinin, at sa halip ay ibuhos ang ating lakas sa lalong pagpapaganda sa ating ngalan... mas magandang armas pa rin kasi ang rason, kung alam mong nasa tama ka, anong laban nila db?

there's a difference from being the "best we can be" from being the "best among the rest". One is more rewarding. and we don't always have to be the best among the rest... EXCELLENCE above all!

WARNENG'G

the war begins...
ang sa 'kin lng tirahin m na ang org as a whole wla lng personalan...
FOUL!!!
org bashing pa ba un?... kakaiba...
pro ang lam q, alang taong bobo, tanga pa siguro! 'NDE kami 'yon!

ENGG WEEK NA!

ala lng, sarap sumulyap.... cute tlaga ni hotness....:D hehe:D

lots of things running through my head.... have to think about all of them but at this point since it's "THE" week in the college, i just want to shut off and be on EW mode or petiks mode! but no! have to balance lots of stuff.... and to top it all, my grandfather (mother side), died yesterday... sadness...

got a dilemma, was talking non-stop with a colleague of mine saying some nasty things against the administration(people) of the college, and then lo and behold the associate dean was like just behind us! uh-oh! huuuu....

wonder what happened sa SMOKERS' night ngaun? too bad wasn't able to stay for long... sayang... kakaiba 'tong araw na 'to... wasn't able to hear Mass pa.... huuu... "TAKTENG'G BUHAY"... ung grad pic q ala pa nga din pla.... saya! pasaway na F3!

0% interest 2m! (tix @60 featuring 6cycle mind, sandwich, mayonaise, etc....) hope it stops raining na....

miss this blog

miss blogging... in due time... think it's gonna be ok again... the reason i hid this blog/refrained from updating it? sikwet! hehe:D

>>>>ala lang, trip kong song ngaun though not necessarily reflects what i feel....relaxing kasi<<<<<

Rascal Flatts - Bless The Broken Road

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you