huling hirit

am ok now. full speed ahead!:D not that rested but got the necessary dose of R & R after my whining last wednesday. kinda bitin though, want to bum around for a change.(miss bummin!!!!waaaaah!) as my brother commented: "prang naghahabol ka lagi ng oras!" hell yeah!

anyway, after watching star wars episode 3 with the fam last wednesday night (G4) - 'twas great by the way though i really need to watch the past episodes to refresh my already forgetful mind, i asked that we head for an outing the coming weekend. kahit ano, fontana etc. basta swimming! eheheü kahit nga EK ayos na sakin e. well anyway, we settled for subic (as against hundred islands, since the last time we were there was 2003 compared to subic which was 1995!!!). puerto galera was out of the question cause 1)though we've never been there yet, my mom thinks is kinda risky to travel by sea especially since it's been raining the past days, 2) have to save up some money if we're gonna buy a laptop... heheü anyway, puerto and pagudpud will have to wait some other time. (kinda into the beach now, since i am brave enough to swim, tread and snorkel.ü )

subic was great, the beach was ok. water was too salty though as it kept on hurting/irritating our eyes though we had our goggles on. we had this tendency nga lang to keep comparing it to Balicasag, and virgin islands in Bohol. (hang-overs!) my brother and i wanted to try on swimming from the shallow end to the net but whoah! it was far! my dad tried it first and he was sooooooooooo out of breath when he got back to the shallow side. so much for the mock bravery, i chickened out and tried only to about 1/5 of the distance. didn't push myself to my limits. and instead of swimming to the deep end i opted for treading hehe. daya no? scaredy cat.

was funny kasi, the last time we went on an outing wherein we brought food along aka picnic style, was uhmmm can't even remember! ansaya! anyway, by the time we were ready to leave, prang uulan na. good thing got na my dose of tan line! ehehe:D volunteered to drive back home, tiring but the NLEX was the best! ehehe:D my dad didn't like it that i was driving too fast reaching up to 140kph! yey! sarap ng feeling! if only all the roads in the Philippines are that smooth and wide (therefore no congestion)! my dad thought i was too aggressive!
dad:"nde ata maganda influence q sau!don't drive like that. it's not safe."
joyce:"why, just because im a girl?!!!"
dad: "well yeah, you're too aggressive considering BABAE ka."
so much for the fun ride!

observations:
joddy:"prang lahat ang bukambibig, Boracay. as if un ang status symbol."
joyce:"onga e, ilang ulit na narinig ko yan sa mga tao dun. dati gustong-gusto q magpunta dun, just for the sake na makapunta. pro prang ngaun, yoko na rin ata. pra maiba naman!"
joddy:"eh, nde naman na daw ganun kaganda boracay ngaun."
mama:"db nasa news overpopulated na daw. white sand lang naman maganda ata dun."
joyce:"dati nde naman, kahit ung waters nun maganda and clear. tsaka ata ung shoreline."
joddy:"mas maganda pa ung virgin islands!"
joyce:"ung sa may Bohol?ung lumulubog ang sand kapag high tide?sinabi mo pa! ang ganda nun!" (hang-over to the max!)

!damn tired!

>>>warning:sinusumpong aq. must get this out of my chest...
wanna scream. wanna shout. wanna quit...wanna resign...

"i want out.."

on the brink of accepting defeat... i can almost hear myself saying yes pat, i am no longer fyn with what i am doing. yes byron, nag-volcorp na lang sana ako...

need and want that "me time"... me, me, me, me, me...

am ready to be called a quitter, or a coward for that matter. doesn't matter. to hell if i make a disappearing act. who cares? life will go on... somebody out there is willing to take on the job... kung pede lang umuwi ng province at magtago... wlang laglagan, pro siguro must stop thinking that i should work extra to make up for someone else's absence esp if in the process, even i don't have any time for myself anymore. or if crying seems all too natural to do...

nuff said...

just so so frustrated right now...

and so damn tired!!!

(hence the pag-iinarte...)

need to recharge, that's what i need right now. a momentary break of the non-stop flux of tasks and "post-its of things to do, but never really accomplished..."
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...but in reality i'm slowly losing my mind
underneath the guise of smile
gradually i'm dying inside...
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multi-tasking to the max!!!!

sounds geeky i know! I can almost hear someone saying "tsktsktsk, eh pano..." out there. I wasn't just busy these past days (hence the non-appearance of any posts at all!), was super-busy (ym status ba ito?hehe:D) Instead of blogging about, like what i'm doing right now , i really shouldn't be doing so if i am to maximize my "time" --- labo ko no? and focus naman on my acads. Would you believe i've been neglecting my studies(this summer) for days now. it's the council work that's been making me spin lately (trying to accomplish different tasks at the same time or squeezing them altogether in the least possible time). Admittedly, (lagot ako kapag nalaman 'to nina mama, although they have an idea na...hehe) I am much more motivated in doing(far from being finished though!) the council stuff than submitting the reports, reading the assigned lectures and reviewing for exams. Naiinis pa nga ako if tatambakan kami ng prof ng kung anu-anong requirements! Palibhasa GE(general education) subject lang. Although it's really wrong to think that just because it's a GE subject, the requirements are uncalled for. Kung bakit naman kasi kung kailan tumanda na ko sa UP at nademonyo na't naging dq saka q kinuha ito e. dapat nung mga bandang freshie pa ako at GC (Grade Conscious) pa ako e!) I tend to prioritize tuloy yung council work. But heck all this whining wouldn't change the fact that i still have to read 442 pages of NOLI ME TANGERE, 437 pages of RIZAL: MAKABAYAN AT MARTIR (Rizal's biography), EL Filibusterismo, 2 short stories, more or less 6 poems (in which we have to do a creative presentation on 3), another novel (i have yet to ask my classmate the title for i skipped class the day the prof gave this requirement), watch and make 2 movie reviews, and 2 websites to scrutinize. That's just about it ---- for the acads stuff. (someone must be shaking his/her, probably his, head already). For the council part: 1.) as Freshmen Week Pakain head, i have to market/submit (through fax/walk-in) sponsorship proposals. freshmen attendance is estimated at more than 300!!!!(7 departments ba naman out of 8 sa College of Engineering ang may department orientation on that day sa morning!except ComSci lang, total freshies is around 700. still have to get the exact/final figures para mas maging maayos ang estimate ko!) 2.) as BOOK BUYING QUEST (BBQ) Co-Head, i have to finalize the list of books most engineering students will be using this coming first sem. of course there's the logistics and publicity stuff as well. 3.)as ChE rep, mas marami pa! REACTOR (newsletter) editorial exam and new staff, Freshie Day, Volcorps, 1st sem registration, ChE shirt, etc. haaay.... Grabe na itich!tadtad na ng post-its ang notebook ko!ahaha:D and to think we(ESC) have three more Major projects lined up! pro like what i said before gusto ko mag-head ng isang event sa Eng'g week!ehehe:D
~~~bits:~~~
~ Love's gonna start working na pla sa Monday sa Siena! Nax, Teacher Love!:D
~ Patrick, wag na magcomment alam ko na iniisip mo! cute pa rin ako!ahaha:D
~Byron: "bakit pa kasi ako tumakbo e! nag-volcorp na lang sana ako!" ahaha:D gasgas na hirit mo! ibahin mo naman!:D
~ UP ALCHEMES so sorry if not much of help lately and i'm not that visible senyo...