for some reason i feel somewhat sad or emo... not really down but under the weather... can't seem to find the right word for it so i'll just settle for emo...

anyway, i'm thinking if i should get myself a new phone this christmas... after all, the phone i'm using right now is like around 3yrs old already. So if I should decide to get one, which should it be?

• Phone 3G 16GB - Php43,799
• HTC Touch Diamond - Php41,800
• Samsung Omnia - Php38,000
• SE Xperia X1 - Php42,500

The more pressing question though is, am I prepared or willing to spend that much money for a new phone or just get other stuff? oh yeah i was also considering getting an ipod upgrade and an external HDD...hmmm... good luck to me!

so tired...

so much to do, so little time
or
i'm just too inefficient...

i feel bad for my shortcomings/limitations/inadequacies at work... hopefully i can make up for them...

i'm gonna miss cristine... it's gonna be sadder and harder without her around next year... it's just too bad our schedules can't coincide... nevertheless, we're thankful for all the breaks given our way. they're all blessings. (i have my fingers crossed on mine though)...

i'm really really tired but here i am blogging yet again. for some reason i feel so drained but not to sleep yet but to "bum" around or petiks so to speak...

oh well... gotta sleep... hopefully, i'd get to rest and accomplish the tasks/commitments in the coming weeks (at least lessen the workload)...

arashi for dream...

i'm watching fancams from the shanghai concert right now and i must admit i'm still so addicted to those JE boys... ♥♥♥ i'm still dreaming and hoping to see them in concert/live! hopefully next year! argh!so much to do, so little moolah... hehehehe

for chie it's already for real! go chie!!!

♥♥♥

it never ends...

work is hectic as usual and i find myself making a couple of mistakes here and there. i hope i can catch up though and make amends for those mistakes. i'm really faltering and lagging behind, still i am hopeful i can redeem myself and my break will come soon enough.

maybe i should say i'm better than the previous weeks as the emotional burden that suffocated me at work have sort of passed (and so i hope). i've got a lot of growing up to do but still i am scared to step out of my own "good enough place". yes, i hide and resign myself to my own little world rather than get hurt and or subject myself to situations and relationships that would involve pain. i am still starting to feel that life is no fairy tale and learn how to deal with it in a grown-up way. i think it is for this same reason that i've usually kept to myself a lot of things. In order to keep the unpleasant things at bay, I would close my doors or go my own way. Maybe I've been rather selfish but I guess this is a start. To be open is to subject yourself to pain but that's how you build relationships that are deep and lasting in the first place.

one step at a time.

to all those who supported me when i felt at a loss for such a trivial situation, from the bottom of my heart thanks! hopefully, i'd get to return to the favor.

Lord, thank you! Please be with me/us always. =)