It's not one of my best days and I guess you could say my emotional state is such a mess again right now... I am tempted to try and keep things simple by just speaking up, be done with it and move on... But I'm not sure if that's the best decision... I definitely would like to keep the friendship... It's been a good if not great one so far... Bottomline: I am just so confused.
Nonetheless, looking back on the past year especially the past 8 months I have so much to be thankful for. Coming here was maybe one of the best decisions I've ever made. I loved, got hurt, became broken and whole again, broken out of my shell and experienced life in a way I never thought or imagined I would... Life has been good and God has been great in taking care of me. So much learned and still learning... Definitely, I don't have any regrets. Thank you Lord! Thank you life!
Now, if only I can make up my mind on what to do with this emotional turmoil that I won't regret... I kind of wonder though if there's a decision that has to be made at all actually... Maybe I should just let it be but it's been really taxing on my part...
Still I hope and pray while I enjoy living and experiencing life... I find that which will help me move on to the next stage... One where life is better lived and experienced when shared...
Hope is the dream of a soul awake.
