I've built my walls so high and so thick that it's a maze even for myself to get through them. Sometimes, I don't even get me for my quirks and pet peeves that make up part of that wall. I can't help but contradict myself.
I try to see the good in every situation. I try to stop and think although of course they either come in too early or too late. Too early that I overreact when it comes or too late that I've already overreacted. I think too much but not in a good way. I'm too wrapped up in my web of weird, coward, proud, selfish, complicated ways to keep up that wall.
I kind of wonder how can really one get through? Who can get through it knowing that it's me who has to let someone get through it. Do I have to rely on someone finding any well-hidden cracks to get through? So far, my chances are becoming slimmer-close to nil considering my predisposition.
I should probably resign myself to a life of regrets and single-blessedness.
