Death and Dying

I found myself writing notes for three different people to express my condolence on their loss of a loved one. While I am not exactly friends or family with all of them except for maybe my High School teacher who i was fond of back then, all times I struggled to write something other than condolence or copy another's note. Why is it hard to find the right words to express my empathy on a personal level? Somehow condolence doesn't quite capture it and seems overused, generic and impersonal. I am not sure if it's right to mention the words loss, sympathy(which technically expresses pity), sad and difficult time. I guess the best way would be to say that they are in your prayers. Let's take a moment

Eternal Rest grant unto the souls of our loved ones (no longer here with us) Oh Lord
And let perpetual light shine upon them
May they rest in peace
Amen.

And for the living:
Make us strong and Keep us in Your love as we go on our life's journey.

On another note, it is not uncommon for me to think of death or dying. My vanity is a huge factor or so it seems as evidenced by the choice I made or the thought I had when discussing dying by drowning or burned alive. While one was thinking of the suffering involved in either case and another on what will happen to their loved ones, I was thinking that none would look good afterwards. :D However, with my manner of driving I kind of think that my risk of dying is high which would also be a mess. 

I am not suicidal nor I am ready to do so but sometimes it seems an enticing thought, if only to realize your worth or lately if only to make work go away and give you breathing space. Now that's pathetic.

Happy Vday everyone! 

Until I have someone to celebrate it with I guess it's just any another day for me. You could probably say I just don't get it. how about make me then?! :D