ENGG WEEK NA!

ala lng, sarap sumulyap.... cute tlaga ni hotness....:D hehe:D

lots of things running through my head.... have to think about all of them but at this point since it's "THE" week in the college, i just want to shut off and be on EW mode or petiks mode! but no! have to balance lots of stuff.... and to top it all, my grandfather (mother side), died yesterday... sadness...

got a dilemma, was talking non-stop with a colleague of mine saying some nasty things against the administration(people) of the college, and then lo and behold the associate dean was like just behind us! uh-oh! huuuu....

wonder what happened sa SMOKERS' night ngaun? too bad wasn't able to stay for long... sayang... kakaiba 'tong araw na 'to... wasn't able to hear Mass pa.... huuu... "TAKTENG'G BUHAY"... ung grad pic q ala pa nga din pla.... saya! pasaway na F3!

0% interest 2m! (tix @60 featuring 6cycle mind, sandwich, mayonaise, etc....) hope it stops raining na....

miss this blog

miss blogging... in due time... think it's gonna be ok again... the reason i hid this blog/refrained from updating it? sikwet! hehe:D

>>>>ala lang, trip kong song ngaun though not necessarily reflects what i feel....relaxing kasi<<<<<

Rascal Flatts - Bless The Broken Road

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Christmas Celebrations at UP Diliman

This year's Christmas event will be dubbed "Kanya2 2gether sa PasQ". It typifies UP's ultimate basis for unity: agreeing to disagree. It celebrates, with the youthful pinache of text lingo, our invigorating freedom and daunting diversity in one ideal space we call home: the academic oval. It allows us to congratulate one another's work in anextended 4 day festival of the best of UP Diliman where before we were incognito revelers in a tightly squeezed crowd on Lantern Parade night.

The oval will be shut off from all forms of vehicular traffic for 4days from Dec. 12-15 to allow us to stroll with leisure in a tentcity atmosphere that features the best accomplishments of UP's academe and student organizations. Large white Murayama tents (12' x12') will line the inner academic oval which will be zoned into academic, student orgs, dry goods tiangge and food concessions areas.

The Carillon will sound Christmas Carols at 5 pm daily beginning onDec. 2 followed by the lighting of Quezon Hall signaling the beginning of celebrations. Awards for best academic and student org tents and best Parol per booth will be awarded along with a Belen competition among college student councils. One-hour daily concerts will be held at dusk in succession at the Quezon, Melchor and Palma Halls to be capped by a Rock/Reggae/Acoustic Amateur Bands Concert at the sunken garden on the evening of the 15th till the following morning followed by an Ecumenical Simbang Gabi.

Student and Academic pakulô events such as the APO's Oblation Run atthe oval at noon of the 15th and Beta Epsilon's Fireworks Display after the Lantern Parade on the evening of the 15th will be screened, scheduled and printed on flyer itineraries. The traditional LanternParade will be headed, thematized and choreographed by the College of Fine Arts. The theme will be Earth, Wind, Fire and Water Elemental Masks. It will parade once around the oval and pick-up the academic/student booth lanterns along the way.

Let us prove yet again that with a little imagination, even austerity cannot douse the spirit of celebration in Diliman.

Paunang pagbati ng maligayang Pasko!

Gerry Cao
Chancellor

LET IT GO

thanks to ate jo, for posting it sa groups! what a timing! shux! as in super swak!

Let it go
by T. D. Jakes
There are people who can walk away from you; and hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk.
I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.
When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The Bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead.
You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay. Let them go!!
If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to...LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ...LET IT GO!!!
If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth LET IT GO!!!
If someone has angered you ... LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge...LET IT GO!!!If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction ... LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents... LET IT GO!!!
If you have a bad attitude...LET IT GO!!!
If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better... LET IT GO!!!
If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him... LET IT GO!!!
If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship....LET IT GO!!!
If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves...LET IT GO!!!
If you're feeling depressed and stressed.... LET IT GO!!!
If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to... LET IT GO!!!
Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing !!! LET IT GO!!!
Get Right or Get Left... Think about it, and then LET IT GO!!!
"The Battle is the Lord's!"

na naman

WARNING: MUSHY! (take necessary precaution!)... wrote this last nyt...

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I will shut that door but for now let me be. let me wander in this barren land.

*** enter music:
I'm a big, big girl
in a big, big world
it's not a big, big thing
if you leave me
but i do, do feel
that i do, do will
miss you much... (miss you much)
***end music

I will always be haunted by the fact that I was so afraid of getting hurt i ended up inflicting more pain to myself than they could have. And yet I must be vigilant so that like what kathleen said (thanks for those chats super!) I will not miss "it" the third time...

so i guess this goodbye... (for real)...

i'm really starting to hate my NBSB status. it sucks big time!

thank you still for the numerous things I've learned much because of you guys...much as i want to write it all here i still can't. must keep something for myself. pro grabe i've written bout u (the other one) so many times na pla! ahaha:D although i can count 4 other na i didn't name! ehehe:D aus! *wag kang mag-alala/di ko ipipilit sau*

***Enough drama cue music: numa numa ye (maia hi maia hu)/move your body gurl!
WHE & BBQ MODE: ON!

P. S. Good luck and God bless to my best pal Patrick. I'm excited for you! :D

>>>STOP

***feelin better already. though still a bit woozy... aftershock... not bitter just sad...

*poof*

just like that.... *poof*... it became koko crunch! >>> corny i know... sadness...

blame it on harboring hidden desires... maling akala... me and my overly active imagination!

haaaaaay.... prang gusto q makasession si MP ngaun ah! tsktsk! anyone care to join? pat, painom ka after ng board m, pra may excuse aq! wahehe:D nah, not really.... not that sad! but still sad...

*fly away... sadness... *

*pasukan na naman, engg week na naman. buti naman. busy na naman. saya, perfect diversion...*

lotsa things

starting to feel a lil dizzy trying to do lots of stuff, and thinking about what needs to be done by today, what i need to do tom, etc... whew! courtesy call (ma'am gene and then sir happy), log rep, fax sponsorship proposals, remind acadcomm, what's happenengg (esp engg voice), notes/documents, permits, *breathe!* need to take notes! mahirap na pag may nakalimutan! ehehe:D

miss these people: (HS friends)

Chinky's "instant" bday blow-out! ehehe:D

felt good to hang out with them! simpleng tambay lng sa gitna ng kalsada ng 9pm. aus! "kanya-kanyang session!" nyahaha!:D love you guys! see you this friday ulit?:D hopefully tuloy... yet to ask my mom/dad's permission... hehe:D *fingers crossed*

current addictions

• fly away (longest yard OST)
• blue sky (thanks to cha!)
• ever after
• being tipsy/borderline drunk! (now i know why he likes drinking! share the same sentiments now! nyahaha!)
• hotness hang-over!

damn it! just found out that i got a grade of 2 in sts! damn! so much for hoping for that cum laude! oh well, that's life! haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyy.......... waaaaaaah! sadness......

worse, got an INC in my supposedly last PE! what the heck happened? shocks, thank God for CRS Grades Viewing. or else.... what to do?! sadness...

* if i could fly away, i won't come back * ... sadness...

ending...

the sem has ended. another one's starting, and hopefully my last....

my heart goes out to the following people for being caring, dedicated, passionate.... and something else in between...
ate kim - though it was all a blur for me, thank you for being there. i know you were tired and everything and that you could have left just as easily to rest. you decided to stay... i didn't ask you to (did i?) but you stayed.... thank you very much. and i'm sorry for the added strain i gave you, for tiring you out even more. it didn't occur to me before that we'll be close but then again i am thankful. i don't know (until now) exactly what happened after that last shot of MP, maybe i've said too much which was a given for most drunk people. i kinda liked it though talking non-stop. but anyway, thank you for putting up with me. i prefer listening to people but lately i don't really do much talking of what's inside maybe because i don't even know what's really deep down inside and all i know is that at this point i am sad. nevertheless, thank you for listening... thank you for being a dedicated mommy to us all. i was amazed with your dedication considering that "your time" for showing such dedication to the org has "ended". what i mean by this is that it really was our time (younger members of the org) to do our part. and i am sorry for my shortcomings on that one. and you shouldn't worry if you might be inactive next semester because as what i've said before, you've done your part... we should understand that... and it's now our turn. and as halley always says, belonging is different from being involved (or something to that effect). sad to say, i have my shortcomings on that one. hands down to you ate kim. alabshu!

cy - sorry at naabala kita ng sobra. you were sort of in the "wrong place" when i got drunk. sorry i got you involved pa. kung tutuusin hindi nmn tlga tau close but when i got wasted umalalay ka. thank you. sorry tlga and thank you.

mark san gabriel - tenchu tenchu very much too esp for getting my bag upstairs when i knew i could no longer manage going up myself. and i'm sorry for all the hassle.

riyann - sorry for being too straightforward. that was so tactless of me.

emer - ayos! salamat sa pagsabay or rather pagtatangkang simabay sa akin magswing ehehe:D

to the rest of the gang that i've "disturbed" (some i can't even remember at all):jervik, lynius, angelle, mae, bart, nikki, jake - sorry for all the hassle. either way you enjoyed yourself dn nmn sa spectacle, ayt jake?:D

nikki - CONGRATULATIONS! and thank you very much! you did great! for whatever shortcomings you felt before what you did for this sem-ender more than makes up for them. continue what you're doing and i hope that you can inspire more of your batchmates to be as active and as involved as you are.

appcomm: kenneth, mae, tina, ayza, leian, janelle esp to lila and katre - CONGRATS! and sorry! admittedly though i wanted to be part of this committee so much i wasn't that effective at all.i do hope though that in my own little way i was able to contribute something. again CONGRATS and sorry.

sa food comm esp bryan, mae, angelle, cy, dani, jervik, riyann, fem, bods at ate kim ulit: salamat sa inyo at may masarap na nilamon ang mga tao.
bucks - salamat at kinuha m ang manok sa marikina kahit mag-isa m lng at napagod ka pa dahil dun. thank you for your dedication to the organization. i am amazed at your dedication to the organization and i do hope that it will not falter or fade. i hope you'll not grow tired of this organization.

halley - buddy ko! astig ka! like what i always say to some of my batchmates if it weren't for you we'd be so scared when the time comes that your batch will be the seniors. keep it up! and God Bless!

jake, fem, al, dani, jp, the execomm - CONGRATS! tuloy nio lng. 2nd sem na plano kau mabuti. mabigat ang sem na darating. God Bless you guys!

alumni na nagpunta: ate adi, kuya joe, kuya iman, ate ja, ate mau at kahit sa mga nde nakarating - sa patuloy na pagsuporta sa org!

UP ALCHEMES - my family in UP. without this org my college life will be a whole lot sad. i hope i won't forget to give back something especially financially after i graduate considering what this org has given me. something valueable no amount of money can replace. the lessons, the camaraderie, the experiences, the insights, the passion.... GO UP ALCHEMES!!!!!!!!!

The University of the Philippines ENGINEERING STUDENT COUNCIL proudly brings you...

HALE BAR TOUR! :D

on September 15, 2005

at Hard Rock Cafe, Glorietta 3, Makati City

for only 250Php

You can pass by the UP ESC office at Rm 123 Melchor Hall, UP Diliman for tickets or contact us at 434-3650.

You could also contact me @ 09194373763 or 09224076610.

See you there!

excited! (obviously) both are still unedited... wonder f i made the right decision. chose kasi the one on the right to be printed (and hence appear in the yearbook!) sana pde magchange!huhuuuu.... mas gusto q ung nasa left!

drained...disturbed...must get out...

daming gumugulo sa isipan... kakadrain... from being touched and happy after reading the write-up Byron made for me for the yearbook, my morale went way below... whew! amazing what emails can do nowadays... but on the brighter side this is much better than my attention focused or rather distracted solely on... haaay....days before my bday and this is how i feel, must really mean something... gonna be sad siguro tlga on that day... oh well...

found this on someone else's blog...

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Things learned from intergender friendships
By Mariel G. Calalo
YOU contributor

THE PREMISE of this article lies on the principle that sometimes, loving a person doesn't mean it has to be romantic and loving a person for the rest of your life doesn't mean you have to end up marrying them. Can a man and a woman just be friends? I'd say yes and they should be.

Hindi dahil kinaibigan ka, liligawan ka na. Not every guy who befriends you has an ulterior motive. Get over yourself. Don't flatter yourself. There is a reason why he befriended you, but don't automatically assume that it's because he wants to be your so-called boyfriend. If this will be the principle you'll follow every time someone asks you to be his friend, you're gonna miss a great deal from the friendship.

Hindi dahil mabait sa iyo, nililigawan ka na. There are people who are naturally sweet and kind. There are people who are innately good and no matter how wicked you seem, they just find it so easy to be kind to you. It doesn't mean he is courting you. Don't put yourself through unnecessary stress trying to figure out if he's courting you or not. Because I think if he is, you won't have to guess, you'll know and you'll be very certain about it.

Hindi dahil he talks to you a lot, he loves you na. You don't befriend a person if you absolutely abhor him, right? Chances are you make sense when he talks to you, or you're probably very patient listening to him. The two of you probably connect on some level but why does it always have to be assumed to be romantic? Being two intelligent, mature human beings, you need to accept that it's nice to share a cup of coffee over a stimulating conversation, and that you don't have to automatically put romantic connotation to it. Relieve yourself of the pressure. It's just coffee and a shared interest.

Hindi dahil cute ang friend mo, crush/love mo na siya. This is the most amusing thing that hit me lately. People always assume that because your friend is cute or should I say, hot (because cute is a word you describe your high school crush while hot is a word you use to describe a hunk), "lakas amats mo na for repapips!" Let me just say this, at least from my own personal experience, I'm just nearsighted, I haven't gone blind. I can still appreciate God's creation! However, there will always be weird things, crazy things, stupid things that will keep you, believe me, from having a crush on him. First of all, you'd know his history with women, enough to judge what's good for you. Second, don't you just hate it when a guy who's absolutely always put together, who looks intelligent enough pronounces the word country as "kawntri" and the word mango as "meynggo." Call me crazy for judging a person just because he can't pronounce these words right. I admit, I'm crazy.

Hindi dahil you hang out with each other most of the time, you'd end up being boyfriend-girlfriend. Self-explanatory... There are a thousand, no million different reasons why things don't always turn out that way. There is no one proven formula. For all we know, the reason why he likes hanging out with you is because he likes getting kikay tips from you. He probably plans on being kikay himself and he needs a mentor.

A dinner with a guy friend does not necessarily mean equate to a date. Especially if you're paying for your share no. Hello? Three things to consider: the place, the topic and how the two of you actually planned to meet. First, how it was planned. If it were a date expect that he would ask you out at least three days before the actual date to give you some lead time, to give you the notion that you are not just a filler on his schedule. Second, the place. If it were a real date, the both of you would want real food and a place where you could really talk things through. Don't go out with a guy to a movie on Friday night if you're really serious about him. Going to a movie is more like treating him like a "filler" just because you had nothing to do on a Friday night so you might as well go out. Topic. Ha! You wouldn't be talking about chikang artista, chikang opisina or argue if the one girl's boobs are real or not. You would be probably talking about sensible, quite personal stuff.

I therefore conclude that platonic relationships are never complicated; people just have tendencies to complicate them.
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bang!
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I try to laugh but cry instead....
Patiently wait to hear the words you've never said...
This City's made us crazy and we must get out....
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Happy Birthday to my dad(8/23)! Love you, Papa!:D

on blogs, harshness, tranquilizers, anti-social mood swings, and healthy one sided blah blah

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found a lil note somewhere in the course of my bloghopping on how she used to snob blogs/blogging as well before. i share the same sentiments coz before i came upon kathie's xanga i was also a blog snob. Thanks to kathie, although i moved to blogspot from xanga (found blogspot's free service more user-friendly:D), i have this corner in the cyberworld. i still can't quite figure out yet on how my page doesn't show up on google when i type a certain keyword. will figure it out next time im free and not so lazy to do so!:D anyways, thanks to friendster a handful of people constantly update their blogs and bloghopping's been an enjoyable "eavesdropping" experience.:D ehehe:D

~*~*~*harshness and tranquilizers
it's kinda weird to be reminded of something you don't have any recollection of and no matter how hard you try remembering you just can't. it's as if i've deliberately erased it from memory. while having dinner at Mcdo(courtesy of yani) with cha, luh and yani last Friday cha narrated how i threw daw a letter that a guy gave to me(through someone) two years ago? and on how she didn't want to be the one to give the letter to me coz she didn't want to be involved (maybe knowing that i was irritated with the guy.... ehehe:D) (comment lng: funny coz the guy who asked her to give the letter is so in love with her and keeps on asking her out). the act was so harsh i couldn't believe what i was hearing.i couldn't believe i was really capable of doing it. ang harsh! i mean, the guy and the rest of the people who knew about the letter saw it in the trash can. GOSH! that was so mean of me! i was like, "did i really do that?can't remember tlaga eh!" wahehe:D astig! i therefore conclude: i am so freaking harsh, mataray, scary and with a huge BACK OFF sign on my head! shux! intimidating...
not to mention hyper, i barely notice it but when i'm so into a certain stuff and or cramming, i become so hyper... i talk so fast and quite raise my voice or something... which of course i barely recognize and what seems normal to me is not really the case pla. "turukan nio nga ng tranquilizer ito!" harhar:D maybe i can mellow down if these people keep on noticing and then telling me about it. ehehe:D
i really must be so transparent, coz on the other hand when i am sad and or mad people can really tell. when i've got a lot of stuff running through my head, people would comment on how i look "spaced out" (which i am these days). and when i'm in a not so good mood, it's like i have this "leave me alone" sign! again, word for the day: shux!

~*~*~*anti-social mood swings
lately i've been MIA on ym... partly because i have a lot of stuff to do. however, when one goes on being sarcastic and trying to avoid conversations, then there must really be something wrong. i don't know why, and what's wrong with me... all i know is there really is no excuse for what i did to someone and i do hope he forgets it. it's quite unforgivable really coz when i think about it, no matter what, i should have time for my friends even for just a brief chat, otherwise, i am no good as a friend. was such a loser tlga that night! God, thanks for the reminder... kathie, pat and to the rest of you guys, (MIA din pla sa text...) really sorry... ayusin q to promise! :D sorry...

~*~*~*blah blah
singing this song again: "you do something to me that i can't explain..." got a new "higher level than the others" crush. still one sided (he's taken) though. but healthy coz no negative feelings or wishful thinkings just plain admiration. and as usual still got those crushes (old and new). keep 'em coming.:D hanggang crush lng aq e... oh well, damn NBSB!

~*~*~*Only reminds me of you
>there's this guy from ACES who reminds me of Film...
>Nat's brother reminds me of gago bluff

...alaala...

Last Tuesday, I was handed an invitation to the Pinoy/Blonde Forum (thanks to ate Gemma) slated that day from 1-4pm. I'm not really a fan of Pinoy movies but I was able to catch a trailer of the movie once and it was quite a departure from the usual, kinda interesting if I may say so. The soundtrack can also be considered a must-have especially for those into Pinoy Rock. Well anyway, Byron (being the fan that he was of "astig" movies) was actually contemplating on going to the forum. When I read the invite, something caught my attention. UP Cineastes' Studio... hmm...kinda sounds familiar, think I saw this already in someone's friendster profile. (yeah I do visit his page!ehehe:D) so I said, what if I went to this forum? Baka Makita ko siya/magkita kami! (after n months!!!!!) Ahaha:D ala lang, kakatuwa lang isipin what if pumunta nga ako dun and there’s this huge possibility na andun siya. But bottomline, I didn't go (neither did byron if i may add) . Pro ala lang pano kaya yun no? ehehe:D how would i/he react kaya? Astig!

Out of the blue: mga kantang may something:D
*tomorrow morning if you wake up and the sun does not appear, I will be Here...
**this is not your ordinary, no ordinary love. You were the first to touch my heart...
***O kay tagal na kitang minahal...
****Hello, how have you been?...
*****you do something to me that I can't explain...
*I have my fingers crossed that he's not into blog reading. But actually, I'm not the least bit scared or concerned should he read this.*
*still sad, but shouldn't dwell on this... *