*should be in school right now pra mangampanya. pro still not done with the take home exam and besides i need to extend my sleep naman for once from just 2-4 hours a day to at least six naman* *sigh*
to say that my week has been so far hectic is an understatement. Monday - campaign, Tuesday - campaign plus consultation for report, W - campaign again + supposedly oral report(but was moved although i had to prepare the night before) + EEE exam, Th - campaign again and CE 22 exam. and today campaign still + the take home exam... so almost everyday was in school from around 8am to 7pm. the earliest i got home was 8pm? whew... and to add to my hectic schedule was fatigue, stress, exhaustion, frustration and pain...
vulnerable, emotional, and combustible... simple things can provoke/prompt me to cry... v-day i nearly backed out on my candidacy because i felt i coudn't take it any longer... but my friends' and UP ALCHEMES' support prevented me from doing so... they have faith in me and i coudn't possibly let them down... besides, it is a challenge i decided to take on and from the beginning i was well aware of the hardships involved and the sacrifices i had to make (acads?)...
but the real story behind the tears is on the fact as pointed out by Jose during our GA last night and the grilling session of us PRIME ChE reps, sa amin na 7 na naglalaban for the 6 slots for rep, given na ung 5 sa kabila... at kami ni cha - kami dadalawa na nga lang na tumakbo from UP ALCHEMES - ang magkalaban for the last spot... *tang-ina* masakit isipin na dadalawa na nga lang kayo, kayo pa ang magkalaban. although syempre sa pananaw ko hindi tlaga kasi magkakampi kami... umalis ako ng GA na malungkot sa realidad ng kasaklapan ng kinalalagyan namin, hindi lang ni cha, kundi ng ALCHEMES, na sitwasyon. umalis ako na mas lalong humanga sa presidente namin, na kahit ganun ang sitwasyon alam ko na tama ang desisyon nya na hindi mag-block voting. at hindi man naramdaman ko ang concern nya pa rin sa sitwasyon... ika nga nya: good luck/ kaya natin ito... sobrang mahal ko na talaga ang ALCHEMES...
it is that fact that hurts... it is the fact that all these: pain, hardships, haggardness, exhaustion, campaigning, etc. seem to be futile that tears fall. it is hard coz you know you have to campaign but you know very well as well that you're not getting any votes through it for the election is rigged and you know already who'll vote for you. lahat ng pagod at hirap, pagbagsak sa exam kailangan danasin but is it in vain... still part of me hopes not... UP ALCHEMES thanks for the support and being my family in UP. Cha, kaya natin to. sa kin, hindi ikaw ang kalaban ko. sakin magkasama tayo... ***pakshet ang emotional ko tlaga! kailangan maubos ko na ang luha ko before kami magpunta sa kabila mamya. God help us. sana kayanin namin...***
2 comments:
sure kba sa pinasukan mo? puro na lng reklamo.. hehe. think positive! dpat my bilib sa sarili. go joyce!
"If God answeres your prayers,
He's increasing your Faith.
If He delays,
He's increasing your Patience.
If He doesn't answer,
He Knows You Can Handle It"
doesn't seem na He's answerin you so alm mo n cguro kung bket. goodluck!
nga pla, pumapayat kn, kain ng mabuti. panget ang skinny. tC!
thanks... mej negative nga siguro pro it's the truth naman kasi. pro anyway, cha and i (ung ksama ko from ALCHEMES) will do what we can for the remaining week. sabagay u'll never know... besides mej mas maluwag na sked ko next week.. and thanks for the quote/passage... i hope ur ryt... thanks ulit.Ü
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