just anything under the sun depending on my mood. I am particularly moody so a lot of them tend to be emo stuff. I am trying to make it more candid though.... so anything goes! :)
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Saturday, June 25, 2005
Sunday, June 19, 2005
out of place
- didn't greet my dad
- wasn't able to hear Mass
- slept through when the rest of the family was out and when they arrived got so emotional stayed up
- woke up to the noise of the welders removing our windows (including the one in my room) to be replaced by sliding ones
- my mom dropped my phone (by accident) and now it's got lines on the screen
- 22 questions for chemistry and 8 for bio
- BBQ + Goodwill
- need additional money for pakain....
- acads....
+ some matters of the heart... one sided this time... so this is how it feels to like someone first and knowing that the feeling is far from mutual or not likely to be. damn! plus the fact that he's not supposed to be my type. is this karma? but haven't i suffered enough from the regrets of the things that slipped away...*you do something to me that i can't explain*
naninikip ang dibdib, sobrang lungkot... leche maitulog na nga ito...
*need to reboot, want my old self back. so messed up these past two days...
Sunday, June 05, 2005
just bummin...
1. finish making and printing the raffle tickets/stubs.
2. write the letter to M&W that is to be signed by Sir Happy as guarantor for the book fair aka BBQ(BOOK BUYING QUEST).
3. print the above two as well as the list of books M&W will provide, the list of companies participating in the event, and the solicitation letter to(or for?heck!) the departments (that should be distributed by tom!)for the freshmen pakain!(if it's not scrapped yet)
and that does not even cover what's lined up for the week!
1. book fair concerns: booths, stocks, manning the booths, etc.
2. follow-up on the marketing proposals
3. registration assistance sa aming ever efficient department
4. prerog sa pe
5. start na ng class
6. magpatawag sana na ng first meeting ng REACTOR(and hopefully have the results of the editorial exam by then)
7. orientation ng Freshie Day "big brothers/big sisters"
8. meeting with Ma'am Shee regarding the ChE job fair.
shocks! imagine the post-its i need to stick in my head!and i haven't been to school yet coz for sure once there got even more stuff and meetings to attend to! OMG! am i whining already? just reminding myself out loud coz should u come across the above mentioned you might wanna remind me. i hope my selective amnesia's not getting worse already..:D
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it's super funny, how most of us "active" in the council is craving or scheduling a "day-off". parang katulong sabi nga nila!wahehe:D well i supposedly got mine 2 weeks ago when we hied(im hoping i used the term properly...) off to subic. but no! come last week, was ultra moody!(im super moody on normal days!:D) don't know what happened but it was my body that was complaining. despite having no classes (and no allowance!-was supposedly my mom's way of making me stay at home but well was stubborn and used my savings instead!)everyday had to wake up early and go home late, it wanted a break. stress + fatigue + the weather = sickness. thursday after running so many errands (but at least finished the registration process), felt good to be with ALCHEMES( (wanted to "escape" council work that time!wahehehe)! kakamiss sobra! anyway, i still didn't feel good and my throat hurt and i asked my mom what medicine i should take and she plainly said: "REST". and Rest i did! i excused myself from going to school the following day(and boy did i miss a lot!ahaha). however, despite being on a "day off", still worked because 1)felt guilty and 2) people were calling here at home or texting me of stuff i had to attend to. ehehe:D so the house technically became my workstation.
the following day was back in school. this is getting so long already... anyway, bottomline we were supposed to watch a movie kanina (MADAGASCAR sana) but my sibs backed out and ayun tinamad na rin aq, tv/eat/read nlng though now i have to cram again. have to be school early tom! at least before 8! or did i mention that already? ehehe:D pro now sinisipon na aq, as in like i have to bring a box or roll of tissue to school tom na!
anyway, enuf said muna.... nde nmn na kasi aq mukhang workaholic or bc e, db? shocks! think i'm painting the picture of a girl with glasses, hair on a neat bun, in business formal clothes, carrying folders, holding a cellphone on the other!tsktsk! not good! not good! i sure hope not!
*****on a different note: the ChE freshies are so makulit. ask a lot of questions sa groups na meanne created for them. don't know if they're making fun of us na, but we have no choice but to answer as politely and friendly as possible. nde q na nga lang alam kung sino tlga ang uto-uto na ngaun! ang freshies ba o kami? sample questions they asked:
1.pano po pag ung PE ko wall climbing..sa power up un...ung sked koevery wednesday....sa wednesday ba punta ako agad ng power up? or sagym ng up muna?pano po pumunta ng power up? :D
2.pano magpunta UNIV theater from SM north?
3. pano magpunta gym from Palma Hall and vice versa?
4. shortest and fastest route from palma hall to math and back.
5. kelangan na po ba ng uniform sa pe ko na judo sa first day?
haaay... basta grabe sa kakulitan na prang super sigurista ang dating....
Monday, May 30, 2005
huling hirit
anyway, after watching star wars episode 3 with the fam last wednesday night (G4) - 'twas great by the way though i really need to watch the past episodes to refresh my already forgetful mind, i asked that we head for an outing the coming weekend. kahit ano, fontana etc. basta swimming! eheheü kahit nga EK ayos na sakin e. well anyway, we settled for subic (as against hundred islands, since the last time we were there was 2003 compared to subic which was 1995!!!). puerto galera was out of the question cause 1)though we've never been there yet, my mom thinks is kinda risky to travel by sea especially since it's been raining the past days, 2) have to save up some money if we're gonna buy a laptop... heheü anyway, puerto and pagudpud will have to wait some other time. (kinda into the beach now, since i am brave enough to swim, tread and snorkel.ü )
subic was great, the beach was ok. water was too salty though as it kept on hurting/irritating our eyes though we had our goggles on. we had this tendency nga lang to keep comparing it to Balicasag, and virgin islands in Bohol. (hang-overs!) my brother and i wanted to try on swimming from the shallow end to the net but whoah! it was far! my dad tried it first and he was sooooooooooo out of breath when he got back to the shallow side. so much for the mock bravery, i chickened out and tried only to about 1/5 of the distance. didn't push myself to my limits. and instead of swimming to the deep end i opted for treading hehe. daya no? scaredy cat.
was funny kasi, the last time we went on an outing wherein we brought food along aka picnic style, was uhmmm can't even remember! ansaya! anyway, by the time we were ready to leave, prang uulan na. good thing got na my dose of tan line! ehehe:D volunteered to drive back home, tiring but the NLEX was the best! ehehe:D my dad didn't like it that i was driving too fast reaching up to 140kph! yey! sarap ng feeling! if only all the roads in the Philippines are that smooth and wide (therefore no congestion)! my dad thought i was too aggressive!
dad:"nde ata maganda influence q sau!don't drive like that. it's not safe."
joyce:"why, just because im a girl?!!!"
dad: "well yeah, you're too aggressive considering BABAE ka."
so much for the fun ride!
observations:
joddy:"prang lahat ang bukambibig, Boracay. as if un ang status symbol."
joyce:"onga e, ilang ulit na narinig ko yan sa mga tao dun. dati gustong-gusto q magpunta dun, just for the sake na makapunta. pro prang ngaun, yoko na rin ata. pra maiba naman!"
joddy:"eh, nde naman na daw ganun kaganda boracay ngaun."
mama:"db nasa news overpopulated na daw. white sand lang naman maganda ata dun."
joyce:"dati nde naman, kahit ung waters nun maganda and clear. tsaka ata ung shoreline."
joddy:"mas maganda pa ung virgin islands!"
joyce:"ung sa may Bohol?ung lumulubog ang sand kapag high tide?sinabi mo pa! ang ganda nun!" (hang-over to the max!)
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
!damn tired!
wanna scream. wanna shout. wanna quit...wanna resign...
"i want out.."
on the brink of accepting defeat... i can almost hear myself saying yes pat, i am no longer fyn with what i am doing. yes byron, nag-volcorp na lang sana ako...
need and want that "me time"... me, me, me, me, me...
am ready to be called a quitter, or a coward for that matter. doesn't matter. to hell if i make a disappearing act. who cares? life will go on... somebody out there is willing to take on the job... kung pede lang umuwi ng province at magtago... wlang laglagan, pro siguro must stop thinking that i should work extra to make up for someone else's absence esp if in the process, even i don't have any time for myself anymore. or if crying seems all too natural to do...
nuff said...
just so so frustrated right now...
and so damn tired!!!
(hence the pag-iinarte...)
need to recharge, that's what i need right now. a momentary break of the non-stop flux of tasks and "post-its of things to do, but never really accomplished..."
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...but in reality i'm slowly losing my mind
underneath the guise of smile
gradually i'm dying inside...
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Saturday, May 14, 2005
multi-tasking to the max!!!!
~~~bits:~~~
~ Love's gonna start working na pla sa Monday sa Siena! Nax, Teacher Love!:D
~ Patrick, wag na magcomment alam ko na iniisip mo! cute pa rin ako!ahaha:D
~Byron: "bakit pa kasi ako tumakbo e! nag-volcorp na lang sana ako!" ahaha:D gasgas na hirit mo! ibahin mo naman!:D
~ UP ALCHEMES so sorry if not much of help lately and i'm not that visible senyo...
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Friday, April 29, 2005
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Saturday, April 23, 2005
popcorns and drinks
in my HUmanidades class yesterday, our prof touched on a novel (Crime and Punishment) which had a very sad ending... and i thought of sad movies... how movies in general veer away from sad endings... why? because generally movies are there to entertain people. they may present some facets of our lives but it is not their purpose to tell us straight away that life is full of sorrow and misery. i mean me for example, even by watching melodramatic films make me feel sad and depressed at times not just for the character(s) in the movie but more so for myself - my experiences... most of us go to the movies, munch popcorns to bond with our families and friends and relax and be entertained. we don't see a movie because i am happy right now and i want to be reminded that this is not always the case.
however, if you think about it even with all the suffering and pain all around us always we tend to forget. we tend to be insensitive and indifferent to the plight of others. and we are just naturally selfish and self-centered to say that i've got enough problems of my own to even bother about others' problems. sometimes, it is in this regard that a melancholic, reality-based (not commercially "manufactured" for oftentimes they are so toned down and off from reality) movie or documentary is indeed called for.
Friday, April 22, 2005
ChE Graduation dinner 2005
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
haggardness
kahit saglit makahinga ng konti... TOGA RELEASE, COLLEGE RECOGNITION RITES, REACTOR, BOOK SALE, BOOK ORDERING PROGRAM, FRESHMEN WEEK....... and the list goes on... part of the job. ok naman, pro haggardness lang tlaga... PI100 and HUM1 pa this summer! need to get that massage or rather kailangan ko mag-recharge!
Monday, April 18, 2005
touchdown
bohol's great! and a whole lot better from the first time we went there sometime DEcember 1996! and it's improving a whole lot! sure would want to go back there. here's the picture: old churches, river cruise, cute tarsier(if only one could bring back an actual tarsier as souvenir!), hanging bridge, huge mounds of chocolate, peanut kisses, dolphins, sand, sun, NEMO!, fishies, some corals(didn't dive though!), white sand, pristine waters! but right now i could really use a massage. think i "overswam"! hahaü the ultimate downside however was the HInagdanan Cave!!!!!
as for CEbu, we weren't able to tour the place as there wasn't a morning supercat trip from Tagbilaran yesterday. oh well... became more of a stopover and we were practically in a hurry just to be able to check in on time.... and oh Nyoy Volante was on the same flight we took. Yoyo (not yoyoy) Villame was there as well (though didn't recognize him at first until Nyoy and company approached him)... but as jimmy neutron says: "gotta blast!" need to rest.... though i feel like bobbing up and down still after the many boat rides and the long hours in water (whether immersed or not)...heheü