huling hirit

am ok now. full speed ahead!:D not that rested but got the necessary dose of R & R after my whining last wednesday. kinda bitin though, want to bum around for a change.(miss bummin!!!!waaaaah!) as my brother commented: "prang naghahabol ka lagi ng oras!" hell yeah!

anyway, after watching star wars episode 3 with the fam last wednesday night (G4) - 'twas great by the way though i really need to watch the past episodes to refresh my already forgetful mind, i asked that we head for an outing the coming weekend. kahit ano, fontana etc. basta swimming! eheheü kahit nga EK ayos na sakin e. well anyway, we settled for subic (as against hundred islands, since the last time we were there was 2003 compared to subic which was 1995!!!). puerto galera was out of the question cause 1)though we've never been there yet, my mom thinks is kinda risky to travel by sea especially since it's been raining the past days, 2) have to save up some money if we're gonna buy a laptop... heheü anyway, puerto and pagudpud will have to wait some other time. (kinda into the beach now, since i am brave enough to swim, tread and snorkel.ü )

subic was great, the beach was ok. water was too salty though as it kept on hurting/irritating our eyes though we had our goggles on. we had this tendency nga lang to keep comparing it to Balicasag, and virgin islands in Bohol. (hang-overs!) my brother and i wanted to try on swimming from the shallow end to the net but whoah! it was far! my dad tried it first and he was sooooooooooo out of breath when he got back to the shallow side. so much for the mock bravery, i chickened out and tried only to about 1/5 of the distance. didn't push myself to my limits. and instead of swimming to the deep end i opted for treading hehe. daya no? scaredy cat.

was funny kasi, the last time we went on an outing wherein we brought food along aka picnic style, was uhmmm can't even remember! ansaya! anyway, by the time we were ready to leave, prang uulan na. good thing got na my dose of tan line! ehehe:D volunteered to drive back home, tiring but the NLEX was the best! ehehe:D my dad didn't like it that i was driving too fast reaching up to 140kph! yey! sarap ng feeling! if only all the roads in the Philippines are that smooth and wide (therefore no congestion)! my dad thought i was too aggressive!
dad:"nde ata maganda influence q sau!don't drive like that. it's not safe."
joyce:"why, just because im a girl?!!!"
dad: "well yeah, you're too aggressive considering BABAE ka."
so much for the fun ride!

observations:
joddy:"prang lahat ang bukambibig, Boracay. as if un ang status symbol."
joyce:"onga e, ilang ulit na narinig ko yan sa mga tao dun. dati gustong-gusto q magpunta dun, just for the sake na makapunta. pro prang ngaun, yoko na rin ata. pra maiba naman!"
joddy:"eh, nde naman na daw ganun kaganda boracay ngaun."
mama:"db nasa news overpopulated na daw. white sand lang naman maganda ata dun."
joyce:"dati nde naman, kahit ung waters nun maganda and clear. tsaka ata ung shoreline."
joddy:"mas maganda pa ung virgin islands!"
joyce:"ung sa may Bohol?ung lumulubog ang sand kapag high tide?sinabi mo pa! ang ganda nun!" (hang-over to the max!)

!damn tired!

>>>warning:sinusumpong aq. must get this out of my chest...
wanna scream. wanna shout. wanna quit...wanna resign...

"i want out.."

on the brink of accepting defeat... i can almost hear myself saying yes pat, i am no longer fyn with what i am doing. yes byron, nag-volcorp na lang sana ako...

need and want that "me time"... me, me, me, me, me...

am ready to be called a quitter, or a coward for that matter. doesn't matter. to hell if i make a disappearing act. who cares? life will go on... somebody out there is willing to take on the job... kung pede lang umuwi ng province at magtago... wlang laglagan, pro siguro must stop thinking that i should work extra to make up for someone else's absence esp if in the process, even i don't have any time for myself anymore. or if crying seems all too natural to do...

nuff said...

just so so frustrated right now...

and so damn tired!!!

(hence the pag-iinarte...)

need to recharge, that's what i need right now. a momentary break of the non-stop flux of tasks and "post-its of things to do, but never really accomplished..."
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...but in reality i'm slowly losing my mind
underneath the guise of smile
gradually i'm dying inside...
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multi-tasking to the max!!!!

sounds geeky i know! I can almost hear someone saying "tsktsktsk, eh pano..." out there. I wasn't just busy these past days (hence the non-appearance of any posts at all!), was super-busy (ym status ba ito?hehe:D) Instead of blogging about, like what i'm doing right now , i really shouldn't be doing so if i am to maximize my "time" --- labo ko no? and focus naman on my acads. Would you believe i've been neglecting my studies(this summer) for days now. it's the council work that's been making me spin lately (trying to accomplish different tasks at the same time or squeezing them altogether in the least possible time). Admittedly, (lagot ako kapag nalaman 'to nina mama, although they have an idea na...hehe) I am much more motivated in doing(far from being finished though!) the council stuff than submitting the reports, reading the assigned lectures and reviewing for exams. Naiinis pa nga ako if tatambakan kami ng prof ng kung anu-anong requirements! Palibhasa GE(general education) subject lang. Although it's really wrong to think that just because it's a GE subject, the requirements are uncalled for. Kung bakit naman kasi kung kailan tumanda na ko sa UP at nademonyo na't naging dq saka q kinuha ito e. dapat nung mga bandang freshie pa ako at GC (Grade Conscious) pa ako e!) I tend to prioritize tuloy yung council work. But heck all this whining wouldn't change the fact that i still have to read 442 pages of NOLI ME TANGERE, 437 pages of RIZAL: MAKABAYAN AT MARTIR (Rizal's biography), EL Filibusterismo, 2 short stories, more or less 6 poems (in which we have to do a creative presentation on 3), another novel (i have yet to ask my classmate the title for i skipped class the day the prof gave this requirement), watch and make 2 movie reviews, and 2 websites to scrutinize. That's just about it ---- for the acads stuff. (someone must be shaking his/her, probably his, head already). For the council part: 1.) as Freshmen Week Pakain head, i have to market/submit (through fax/walk-in) sponsorship proposals. freshmen attendance is estimated at more than 300!!!!(7 departments ba naman out of 8 sa College of Engineering ang may department orientation on that day sa morning!except ComSci lang, total freshies is around 700. still have to get the exact/final figures para mas maging maayos ang estimate ko!) 2.) as BOOK BUYING QUEST (BBQ) Co-Head, i have to finalize the list of books most engineering students will be using this coming first sem. of course there's the logistics and publicity stuff as well. 3.)as ChE rep, mas marami pa! REACTOR (newsletter) editorial exam and new staff, Freshie Day, Volcorps, 1st sem registration, ChE shirt, etc. haaay.... Grabe na itich!tadtad na ng post-its ang notebook ko!ahaha:D and to think we(ESC) have three more Major projects lined up! pro like what i said before gusto ko mag-head ng isang event sa Eng'g week!ehehe:D
~~~bits:~~~
~ Love's gonna start working na pla sa Monday sa Siena! Nax, Teacher Love!:D
~ Patrick, wag na magcomment alam ko na iniisip mo! cute pa rin ako!ahaha:D
~Byron: "bakit pa kasi ako tumakbo e! nag-volcorp na lang sana ako!" ahaha:D gasgas na hirit mo! ibahin mo naman!:D
~ UP ALCHEMES so sorry if not much of help lately and i'm not that visible senyo...

BOHOL pix part3

haaaay...........

L to R: taba, payatot, lampa

wla lang, stopover lang!:D pacute lang sa camera!:D

part 2 ng pix. sa may hershey's kisses tsaka sa blood compact site. ang cute q no? feeling celebrity!ehehe:D

the cute, cuddly, huggable, soft, lahat na tarsier! teaser pa lang yan! hehe :D more pix from the Bohol escapade to follow... next time (",)

popcorns and drinks

it's still so early on a summer morning and yet i am up... call time for the college graduation is at 6am later. so that means i have to go in a few minutes time... i'm stationed backstage and basically is in charge of making pa-cute sa mga performers and also telling them to hurry up if we're behind schedule. well anyway....

in my HUmanidades class yesterday, our prof touched on a novel (Crime and Punishment) which had a very sad ending... and i thought of sad movies... how movies in general veer away from sad endings... why? because generally movies are there to entertain people. they may present some facets of our lives but it is not their purpose to tell us straight away that life is full of sorrow and misery. i mean me for example, even by watching melodramatic films make me feel sad and depressed at times not just for the character(s) in the movie but more so for myself - my experiences... most of us go to the movies, munch popcorns to bond with our families and friends and relax and be entertained. we don't see a movie because i am happy right now and i want to be reminded that this is not always the case.

however, if you think about it even with all the suffering and pain all around us always we tend to forget. we tend to be insensitive and indifferent to the plight of others. and we are just naturally selfish and self-centered to say that i've got enough problems of my own to even bother about others' problems. sometimes, it is in this regard that a melancholic, reality-based (not commercially "manufactured" for oftentimes they are so toned down and off from reality) movie or documentary is indeed called for.

ChE Graduation dinner 2005

April 19, 2005 @ UP Balay Kalinaw

brought to you by the ChE reps!(",)

(magagandang ChE reps!hehe)

after all the hustle and bustle, finally some time to chow!

with the hosts for the night: Lou and Kim.

ang ganda ng "falls"!:D

mukha namang enjoy at busog sila db?:D

graduating ALCHEMISTS!

mga nagsidalo

thanks Ma'am Gene for all the support!

haggardness

today was the culmination of my haggardness. cramming to the max the certificate, tribute and token for the ChE graduation dinner(April 19, 6-10pm, Balay Kalinaw). at the same time i have to squeeze in fixing my sched trying to finish registration for my summer classes and getting my remaining class cards. unfortunately multi-tasking wasn't that efficient or rather everything just can't be accomplished in a span of 5 hours. and so, i am two more steps away from being officially enrolled this summer, the tokens will be given tom, and i still have one more class card to get (this time, not my fault na). Commercial lang pla: grabe i'm so happy din kasi, based on the 16 units out of 18 units last sem, 1.625 ang average ko! yey! i'm hopeful na mga nsa 1 - 1.75 ung last class card ko. And the much better news, based on the 143 units i took CUM LAUDE standing ako! wahaha!ü ang saya kasi to think na haggardness din ako with the campaign and all....ü anyway, mukhang ok nmn outcome nung GRAD DINNER except for some minor setbacks... haaay...

kahit saglit makahinga ng konti... TOGA RELEASE, COLLEGE RECOGNITION RITES, REACTOR, BOOK SALE, BOOK ORDERING PROGRAM, FRESHMEN WEEK....... and the list goes on... part of the job. ok naman, pro haggardness lang tlaga... PI100 and HUM1 pa this summer! need to get that massage or rather kailangan ko mag-recharge!

touchdown

just got back from Bohol+Cebu vacation... i really should be getting some rest coz summer classes starts l8r(and im still not done enlisting in all my subjects!!!argh!!) and my sched's pretty hectic. actually, the trip was quite untimely but very much welcome and needed break for all the task at hand as part of the ESC '05-'06 and also as a 5th year ChE student... anyway, before i digress any further and blog about the "boring" stuff, some bits of fun muna... the "travel log" will have to wait....

bohol's great! and a whole lot better from the first time we went there sometime DEcember 1996! and it's improving a whole lot! sure would want to go back there. here's the picture: old churches, river cruise, cute tarsier(if only one could bring back an actual tarsier as souvenir!), hanging bridge, huge mounds of chocolate, peanut kisses, dolphins, sand, sun, NEMO!, fishies, some corals(didn't dive though!), white sand, pristine waters! but right now i could really use a massage. think i "overswam"! hahaü the ultimate downside however was the HInagdanan Cave!!!!!

as for CEbu, we weren't able to tour the place as there wasn't a morning supercat trip from Tagbilaran yesterday. oh well... became more of a stopover and we were practically in a hurry just to be able to check in on time.... and oh Nyoy Volante was on the same flight we took. Yoyo (not yoyoy) Villame was there as well (though didn't recognize him at first until Nyoy and company approached him)... but as jimmy neutron says: "gotta blast!" need to rest.... though i feel like bobbing up and down still after the many boat rides and the long hours in water (whether immersed or not)...heheü

SEM-ENDER/APPS' FINAL RITES

april 6-7, Villa Hortaleza, Pansol, Laguna

remnants...

six feet under lies someone...
buried by the passage of time...
and yet his presence still lingers...
i look at a rep in Laguna and i see him...
can't help myself to keep glancing in the rep's direction...
sometimes i am caught, sometimes i am not...
but i don't care, for when i look at the rep i am reminded of him...
i know i should have moved on long ago, and i thought i did...
but seeing the rep, i can't help but miss him...
or is it really him that i miss?
or his affection that is amiss?
or just plain regret?
i should've stopped staring...
should've stopped hoping...
for again, i am left with a hole...
although no pain was felt a slight of pang of jealousy struck...
when another rep befriended this rep...
Good God when will i throw him out of my system?
when will i see another someone for who he is?
feels like someone's back from the dead although only in the realm of my vulnerable heart and mind...
damn it!

back from Laguna

finally, some "free/stolen" time to blog. ;p stolen coz i really should be working on the survey form that the ChE graduating students have to fill up starting later during their toga fitting. The results of the survey will determine the awardees for the ChE gradution dinner on April 19, 2005 at the UP Balay Kalinaw. just around a week to go but we don't have a single centavo we can spend for the event, in which expenses were estimated at around PhP 28000!!!(todo ambag muna!) until we can market enough money, the department is willing to lend us some amount. but that's not good at all, umpisa pa lang may utang na!!! This is our first major project as ChE reps, and i really hope we'll be able to pull this off! *God help us*

anyway, gonna make the most out of this "free time" so to my dear (few anonymous) readers brace yourself... :D

hard to believe but for four days i've not touched a pc and watched any show on tv! missed FULL HOUSE tuloy...hehe ;p what's even more amazing was that i was out of the house for that duration of time! last time i remember i was out for a comparable amount of time was when i was still in 4th yr HS! that was when i was part of the SCT delegation to the CMLI annual convention held in Baguio sometime in October of 2000! Gosh! that was sooooooooo loooooooooong ago! at least my strategy worked! and it was a good thing that the two activities i wanted and had to attend were in the same province although approximately 2 hours apart...

April 6 and 7 was the UP ALCHEMES' sem-ender/final rites in Pansol, Laguna. meeting time was around 7am and guess what i arrived in Jollibee Philcoa at say 9:30 am... hehe:D anyway, we had to commute as transpo was not provided/included in the payment and we left Jam station in Cubao at around 10:30 am. we arrived at Villa Hortaleza Resort in Miramonte Subdivision at around 1 ata... the place was ok, although the pool wasn't that big, the accommodation and amenities were ok except for one thing! NO BLANKETS!!! and aside from forgetting to pack my toothbrush(had to buy a new one in 7 eleven) forgot to bring my tapis and jacket!!!! damn! by the time i slept (which was around 4am!) was so cold! at one point, my head ached so much! slept late because the applicants weren't "thrown to the pool" until around 2am! although we had to depart the place by 7am since the reservation was from 7am-7am, sobrang enjoy naman!! sarap magswim!!!:D took advantage when the apps were still busy with their "challenges" hehe:D pra pede pa mag- "laps"... hehe:D

before heading off to pangil, we stayed at Katre's place muna in Magdalena, Laguna to pass the time kasi cha and i anticipated that if we headed straight to the place wla pa ung other ESC pips coz meeting time nila sa Jollibee Philcoa was 7am - meaning to say around 8am pa sila makakalis dun!anyway, katuwa mag-commute sa isang lugar na first time mo puntahan! hehe:D tas 2 lang kami ni cha... 2 jeepney rides and a tricycle ride ang Gabriel's Resort from Pansol. but take note, the jeepney fare was for 30 pesos each! astig! hehe ;p much as i want to elaborate, my "free time" is running out... anyway, the Planning Sem 1 was ok... dami ginawa, meetings galore! planning to the max! and enjoy swimming naman sa last night! nag-inuman sila but being the good and shy girl that i am, didn't join them...besides not really much of a drinker... of course, there was a time na bad trip ako... o. p. ako... ilang... etc... ah basta... this is what i have learned: whatever bad feeling i have for someone i must throw away for it is getting in the way of me performing well as an ESC officer, of bonding with others. with regards to my shyness as one officer observed and wrote sa backstabeng'g i need to improve on it... i know there's so much more that i can do than what other perceives i just have to be more assertive and confident of myself and mingle more! good thing there's still a Planning SEm 2!

and so we went home by around 2:30 pm, saturday this time there was a hired vehicle na. the way was through Rizal since Pangil is near the boundary of Rizal and Laguna, so it was much closer. got off sa Valley Golf na lang, and asked my dad to fetch me there na lang. by 10pm was asleep.... got up @10 am Sunday!

by 2pm, another meeting, this time at Meanne's place in Filinvest. do-day of Grad dinner invites, posters and survey forms... whew!!! now still not done with the survey forms... gotta rush! who said i am not busy? :D

sad news

while working on my take home exam last Friday morning, around 2am to be exact, i got this text message saying that i check CNN/BBC if i want to verify that the pope has just died. that instant, nanindig ang balahibo ko! it was something unexpected, abrupt! to the point you don't want to believe it... stopped working on the take home exam for awhile (even though sobrang photofinish na dapat) to check nga sa BBC and CNN. lo and behold, no news about the pope's death... it was terry schiavo who died... (my thoughts about the the terry schiavo controversy next time when i have the time---dami stuff na ginagawa these days e...) was happy and disappointed at the same time... happy that it was just a hoax/prank (not because it was terry schiavo who died) and disappointed because terry schiavo died and someone would make a joke about the death of another person more so, of a very important man - Pope John Paul II....

anyway, fast forward to saturday's 6:30 anticipated mass, the priest mentioned the deteriorating state of the pope's health, that we should pray that let the Lord's will be done, and that the pope may not go into a coma(pardon if mali usage ng coma)... and then come sunday, the pope died(saturday evening sa Rome).... it's so sad... somehow, the prank text i received last Friday helped me to be prepared for this but one can't help but be saddened by his passing on... he is one pope na kinalakihan ko. though i wasn't there sa UST grounds nung world youth day of 1995, saw him naman... he will be missed... but of course, as Catholics, we must be happy for him, for his suffering has ended and that he will be with the Heavenly Father... *a moment of silence*