remnants...

six feet under lies someone...
buried by the passage of time...
and yet his presence still lingers...
i look at a rep in Laguna and i see him...
can't help myself to keep glancing in the rep's direction...
sometimes i am caught, sometimes i am not...
but i don't care, for when i look at the rep i am reminded of him...
i know i should have moved on long ago, and i thought i did...
but seeing the rep, i can't help but miss him...
or is it really him that i miss?
or his affection that is amiss?
or just plain regret?
i should've stopped staring...
should've stopped hoping...
for again, i am left with a hole...
although no pain was felt a slight of pang of jealousy struck...
when another rep befriended this rep...
Good God when will i throw him out of my system?
when will i see another someone for who he is?
feels like someone's back from the dead although only in the realm of my vulnerable heart and mind...
damn it!