Heard this song over the radio yesterday. i so like this song, i don'tknow why.but it's kinda soothing, relazing in a country melodramatic way...

Leader of the Band
Dan Fogelberg

An only child
Alone and wild
A cabinet maker’s son
His hands were meant
For different work
And his heart was known
To none --
He left his home
And went his lone
And solitary way
And he gave to me
A gift I know I never
Can repay
A quiet man of music
Denied a simpler fate
He tried to be a soldier once
But his music wouldn't wait
He earned his love
Through discipline
A thundering, velvet hand
His gentle means of sculpting souls
Took me years to understand.
The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through
My instrument
And his song is in my soul --
My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
I'm just a living legacy
To the leader of the band.
My brothers' lives were
Different
For they heard another call
One went to chicago
And the other to st. paul
And I'm in colorado
When I'm not in some hotel
Living out this life I've chose
And come to know so well.
I thank you for the music
And your stories of the road
I thank you for the freedom
When it came my time to go --
I thank you for the kindness
And the times when you got tough
And, papa, I don't think i Said
'i love you' near enough --
The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through
My instrument
And his song is in my soul --
My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
I'm just a living legacy
To the leader of the band
I am the living legacy
To the leader of the band.

got to rest and somehow unwind yesterday... finally... and now it's back to work! ChE 142, ChE 136, ChE190, ChE 126, ChEckpoint... buwan na lang... grabe!

joycey (at present)

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tantrums...extremely moody...

huwaaat?!!

honestly, i don't know how the hell i'll be able to survive this week.....hope i'll be able to maintain some balance especially with regards to my sanity...

clueless in makati...again!

yet another makati (mis)adventure! i should really consider familiarizing myself with makati, esp the business area! so that when a guard from Libran says i should walk to AIM and i'm wearing a smart casual attire and it's 12 noon, running late for an appointment (which said 12 noon!), i will take a cab instead! and not walk a good 3-4 blocks and an extra 4 meters to realize i've already passed the road leading to AIM... also, i should have just eaten lunch... or maybe started my day early and went to SM NORTH first and ate lunch before heading to Makati. 12noon turned into 1:30! so that i won't hear my stomach grumbling at 3pm because it's empty...the worst of my "application" stories so far... no front desks, no available employee to entertain your queries... what the heck! stop being so bitchy bout it all joyce! and oh, i messed up in the exam! oh well...

got back to school at 6pm, so much for hoping to be able to go to SM North for the medals and go home early...

happy tuesday to y'all... don't mind me - just me PMS-ing!

here's something nice for you guys to look at:D

ME!:D BUT OF COURSE!

THIS IS MY BLOGSPOT AFTER ALL!

NO VIOLENT REACTION!hehe:D

inspired by someone else's diary aka blog

but not a friendster blog...

from cainta to taytay to drop off my sis, then off to school in qc. as usual took a nap in class. (am so not into the subject). lots of stuff... then off to makati....

the makati (mis)adventure: arrived at 2pm, an hour early for my appointment, decided to freshen up a bit in glorietta. g3 carpark -> g4 lounge -> ayala avenue (saw summit center) didn't know where to park went to the back. but lo and behold the streets aren't exactly parallel... ended up parking in one of the parking areas there. was running late for the appointment. hailed a cab. forgot to ask the place where i parked! talked to the driver: TORDESILLAS. the ticket said: BPI parking. forgot if i was able to lock the car. prayed silently... almost 3pm. got to RSC. registered. rode the first available elevator. not the right elevator! got on the right elevator. got out on the wrong floor! yada yada... RSC -> cab back to Tordesillas -> G3 again.met up with pat and she!waaah! are we old? NO!

total expenses for the transpo: 120 for the parking, 90 for the cab! I SHOULD HAVE COMMUTED! I SHOULD HAVE JUST LEFT THE CAR IN G3! next time!but i don't wanna go back, feel i didn't do well...

g3 -> back to QC! ->PRoj 6, pick-up dextrose bottles -> UP, Ilang-Ilang Residence Hall -> EEE Building -> home....

words/phrases with meaning

• ChEckpoint
• SMA
• robusta, cocoa, mocha
• toxic
• so near yet so far...
• fly away [sadness]
• azeus, toshiba, hp
• hotness
• E!!!!
• ten
• gago bluff
• kiddo
• worse than r-y----
• harshness!
• prince of jaipur
• cocobeach

  

• "shiiit"
• "PI"
• "bitter", "maganda"
• MP, GM, "JOSE!"
• 20000, 10K, 21Q
• hinahanap ka
• why do i miss you
• burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
• biglang nanlamig...
• who's gonna talk to me...
• don't forget about us
• wasted
• numb
• insensitive
• so sick
• back from the dead
• as usual
• what part of NO, don't you understand?
• b---n who? sorry but i don't know anyone by that name?
• mastering the art of being immune and apathetic
• PRIME
• bigger and bolder
• ChEck us out!

pretty in pink...until i turned red...

*tabi-tabi po*: allow me to gloat for a while... guys, thank you very much for the compliments! haaay... don't worry won't be an airhead because of it. besides it's seldom i dress up like that. made me feel good and pretty despite my "bitter" and "PMS" status. ehehe:D 'twas great too that i saw my crushes (note the "es" hehe) today... though not all of them. didn't see kiddo, though his effect is already passe' maybe because a lot of my orgmates keep teasing me even in his presence. but anyway, then there's 10 too (the other one, and he got out without even seeing hello... hmph! haaay... oh well...). pede na rin si basta un though nde q xa exactly crush... ala lng... if u find my other blogspot maybe u'll get what i mean.*wink* :D though i must admit, sometimes nakakailang ang mga comments kasi prang "ur overdressed go home and change" ang dating... oh well... too bad don't have any pix to show here...

but well, someone just gotta ruin ur day... too proud... oh well... pucha JP, whatever will make him stop? he's worse than riyann pa ata(in cha's case not mine...).... ah ewan... don't wanna be mean...

hp didn't call me back though they did with cha... oh well...

*cute cute* too bad he's taken...oh well, at least it's something to smile about. and look forward to...:D

our prof, finally approved our new topic... chocolate coated/covered coffee beans and mocha spread... hope there'd be no more major objections...

time check: 23 days before ChEckpoint (gotta finalize the plans and start the preparations...), 2++ months before 2nd sem ends... hope i graduate on time.... wish me luck... include me in your prayers...

NANAWAGAN lang: any of you know who these people are:

1. ym id: veesix9
2. cel #: 09152420128

just curious that's all. thanks:D

trip lng...

gusto kong malasing....

• nde dahil sa uulitin lang naman namin ang plant design namin na kung tutuusin e noong nakaraang sem pa namin sinimulan...
• nde dahil sa ang hirap lang naman sakyan nung mood swings nung plant design adviser namin...
• nde naman dahil sobrang stressful ang papalapit na graduation... un ay kung makakagraduate nga ako...
• nde naman dahil sa nawalan na ako ng gana pang habulin pa ang pag-graduate with honors dahil sa reason 1 and 2... nagfi-filing lang pala ako na makakagraduate on time...
• nde dahil sa madami pang kailangan gawin at kakaunti na lang ang nalalabing oras...
• nde dahil sa wala pala talagang kasiguraduhan na i'll graduate on time...

dahil kasi ala lang trip ko lang...

{pro seryoso, nde naman dahil lang sa lahat ng iyan! simple lang, dahil sa lalaki! naman! hindi! although all of them could be reasons or at least part of why i want to get wasted... but maybe i just miss that kind of feeling... of being NOT in control... of being "free of pretensions and/or apprehensions"... maybe i just wanna say/do something but i know is not the "normal me" so at least i have the "i-was-wasted-so-i-don't-know-what-i'm-saying/doing-and-hopefully-i-won't-remember-a-thing-so-don't-remind-me-or-mind-what-i'm-saying-or-doing" excuse. maybe i'm just addicted or i enjoyed the feeling of a different kind of high or sort of freedom alcohol affords me... is it bad?should i be alarmed because i feel this way? the downside however, is when one becomes too wasted or one becomes a spectacle everybody will talk about the following morning. so one should chose who to drink with and their drinking capacities should be comparable to one's own...}

nde q pa nasagot ang tawag ng hp nung isang araw... hirap ng minamalas...
tama na nga angal... nasasayang ang oras...

haaay, buti nalang me naimbentong hotness... at... un lng pla... kakalungkot pala ung iba... ehehe:D pdeng rason pala para uminom ung iba... hehe:D

prang ang sarap tuloy mag-jaipur! waaah! kath, balik ka na! nde ganito na lang pra nde shado sad! bilisan mo jan ha?:D

extended break...

haaaay... (silent pool, coco beach) kakamiss... pati jaipur kahit amoy sigarilyo ako after... i wanna go back! i want to go to white beach naman with mah friends, coco beach with kathie, jaipur with kathie, bohol and palawan with the fam... haaay....

toxic na! grabe...

cute ni hotness tlga...

may nami-miss aq, ba't kaya?... 10...nde kaw!wag feeling!
hinahanap ka ng puso ko, ewan ko ba kung bakit... hindi mo na aq pinapansin...
nde na kita nakikita...sa tagpuan natin tuwing madaling araw... onga pala may girlfriend ka na...
(dalawang tao yan!ahaha) aus!

ummmm....

ok, so maybe my previous post was a bit harsh... but it worked right? or it looks like it's working. sorry if i had to be harsh, but i really got pissed off with the EK, sugarfree etc thing... sorry, i just couldn't help myself... this sort of makes me wonder though, at the rate or intensity of my harshness i really might just end up being part of the NBSB crew... shit! i should be a whole lot nicer or considerate... anybody out there willing to share some sugar and spice and not some grumpiness which i am so full of?! come to think of it... <>

now i must go, for I have a plant design to work on. lots of stuff need to be done in just 4 hours. at least now i think we're making some sort of progress instead of being stuck-up for months in a process flow! so frustrating!

later i'll be somewhere, tom i'll be somewhere again with friends... so far my first time to go out of town with friends (so not related to school, org, etc!)... wish for my safety... :D

puh-lease....

and i thought you got the message! it's so not cute and funny anymore! it's really getting on my nerves! sorry but i think i somehow need to be a little harsh since my indifference and/or indirect hints seems to be not working at all! care to know why i hid this blog for some time before and why i refrain from making posts or why i deleted the archives section? go figure! i'm on the verge of being bitchy! really... so please just stop!

snapshots...c/o she

the girls without mitch...

sinong lasing?:D kamusta naman ang lollipop?:D

isa jan lasing, ung dalawa antok lang talaga!:D

sa uulitin!:D nabitin ako! onti lang nainom ko! ehehe:D

issues...

issues now abound in the yahoogroups just because of two people who dared post their opinions and feelings... i'm not saying their wrong in doing so, but i hope that whatever feelings it will stir among the alumni and the members it will all lead towards improvement of the organization for the better...

sarap sana umepal kaso wag na lng, after all madami din kasi aq nasagasaan na damdamin nung engg week... nde q man kilala kung sinu-sino, alam q meron. naging super sungit and init ulo din kasi aq... nakakalungkot din na may mga sakripisyo kang ginawa pro mararamdaman mo na wala plang naka-appreciate nito... pro d bale ginawa q naman ang mga iyon pra sa org... kasi naramdaman q na kailangan may maibahagi aq...*sigh*

was there any pressure for us to win in the events that we played? i'd like to think there wasn't. it was on maintaining the engg week standing of last year. the pressure came from the fact that we are now a bigger family and that would mean a lot of potential waiting to be harnessed. but the problem is, it was not maximized but utilized just the same. maybe a lot of us expected a lot. we thought we were a strong organization that could outdo what we did last year but two days or so and a lot of default games after we thought boy were we wrong... maybe it just wasn't for us and we have to channel our energies to something else...

i personally felt that we got left behind by mss, who saw our performance last year. as someone i know from mss said, "tingnan mo nga ang alchemes kasing edad lang natin yan pro pang-6 sila last year." didn't we in a way inspire them or served as a benchmark?

bakit naghahanap ng tao? kasi sa 130++ na members na nasubmit as roster, hirap maghanap tuwing umaga... daming default games... what's the problem with the default games? the money that was used for registration! hindi na nga maganda ang financial status may masasayang pa na pera. siguro may pagkakamali rin ang engg week comm or execomm ng org. siguro dapat bago sila nagregister tinanong muna nila ang mga taong isusulat nila kung willing sila. at least kung madefault man at wala namang klase ung taong kasali walang rason kung bakit hindi nila bayaran ang pinangregister dun db? hindi naman ganun kayaman ang org... siguro bago nila sinumbit ang 130++ members sa esc dapat tinanong muna nila ang mga ito kung ok lang ba tlaga sa kanila na kahit papaano ay dumaan ng tambayan at lumahok sa mga laro o kaya'y manood man lang... hindi biro ang 130++ na numero, ayon sa record pangatlo o pang-apat tayo sa may pinakamaraming miyembro...

last year, oo sobrang saya talaga. ngayon pagod ekek... pro pansinin natin, walang awitan last year, walang indakan... may awitan sana kaso nagka-issue din... sino ang mga nasa indakan, sino ang mga nasa awitan ngayon?...

i commend the kids who were given lots of responsibilities, you did well considering that there should have been a senior to guide you.

mga pagmuni-muni

First and foremost, CONGRATULATIONS to jules and the rest of the AWITAN pips! i am so proud and happy for you guys!thank you for sharing whatever gifts you have...

while on my way home last nyt, a lot of stuff ran through my head... and before i knew it i was crying... because of fatigue, of stress, of sadness, and because maybe iyakin lang talaga ako...

hindi naman siguro kaila sa atin lalo na sa mga bibong members na iba ang engg week na ito... puno ng negative emotions... salamat na lng sa magagandang balita tulad ng sa AWITAN... pro sa totoo lng kahit aq kagabi natakot na kahit un ay ipagkait sa atin... ewan ko ba pro kagabi pakiramdam q ay pinagkakaitan Niya tayo... malungkot ako sa mga nangyayari...

hindi naman sa umaasa aq na mag-top tayo sa engg week... hindi naman talaga sukatan iyon ng galing ng isang organisasyon at ng mga miyembro... o hindi nga ba? hindi ba't kahit papaano masasalamin pa rin nito kung paano magbalanse ang mga tao ng kanilang oras, magpagalaw ng mga tao, maging organisado... nasaan na ang 100++ na members? hanggang numero lng ba tayo? kung ganoon ano ang halaga ng ALCHEMES sa iba sa atin, matatambayan para hindi loner? training ground para mapaganda ang resume? libreng meryenda o tanghalian?

let us not forget that if not for the members of this organization who or what will give "UP ALCHEMES" its prestige, its reputation... anong kwenta ng UP ALCHEMES sa resume kung walang mga proyekto ito? mga miyembrong naglilingkod dito, mga miyembrong isinasaalang-alang ang pangalan ng organisasyon...

pro nakakalungkot din na may mga iba sa atin na sinasabi nila mahal nila ang organisasyon, pro hanggang dun lng... hindi ba nila nakikita at nararamdaman na kailangan ng organisasyon ang tulong nila... ang pagmamahal ba ay hanggang sa dahil napapakinang ka ng organisasyon? o may katumbas ding itong pagmamalasakit sa kanya?

dumating na sa puntong nagsusumbatan na, nagsusukatan na, nagsisisihan na... hindi maiiwasan, hindi mo masisisi lalo na ang mga pagod na... kasi naman, kung tulong-tulong at sama-sama wala namang talagang mabigat hindi ba? ang importante may nagawa ka na... kung sinisisi ka pro alam m naman na ngawa m0 na ang bahagi mo o ang kaya mo, pabayaan mo sila! hindi naman sinasabi na mawala na ang UP mula sa UP ALCHEMES pro kung may maibabahagi ka, sana huwag ipagdamot... itanong natin sa ating sarili, mahal ko ba ang org na ito? may nagawa na ba ako? may magagawa pa ba ako?

nangongonsensya ba ako? namimilit ba ako? hindi po... gusto ko lng sabihin ang mga saloobin ko... kung tinamaan ka, mabuti, nakakaramdam ka pa... kung hindi, wala ka lang marahil pakialam o magkaiba tau ng pananaw... sapagkat hindi naman dahil sa nasa iisa taung bubong ay kinakailangang pare-pareho ang takbo ng ating pag-iisip...

sabi ko sa ating presidente, magalit ka na kaya o kaya'y may umiyak na satin sa harap nila... ngunit dali ko itong binawi... bakit? pra saan, para manlimos ng awa? pra may mapagtsismisan ang iba? pra magbulung-bulongan tayo... kailangan pa bang humantong sa ganoon? besides, even if someone cries, only a handful will care, be driven to work... the rest they will feel sorry, sympathize for a while, and then poof!

nakakalungkot na nagkakaganito tayo bilang isang pamilya... may lumulutang pa na mga paksyon... bakit ganun? personal glory? wag naman sana...

have fun... hindi na yan ang nangyayari... mediocre na ang performance natin, nakukuntento na tayo dun kahit na alam natin sa ating mga sarili na higit pa tayo dun! nadedeactivate na ang marami sa atin...

hanga ako kina ate iris, ate jone, nagawa nilang pagsabayin... alam ko na marami akong pagkukulang din... patalo pa ako sa mga nasalihan ko kahapon... hirap pa akong magcommit sa mga bagay-bagay...marami na rin akong hindi alam sa mga nangyayari at lahat ng ito'y batay lamang sa katiting na alam ko... hanga ako kina jose, paul, gemma, ryan, nina, mga GC kung tutuusin pro nung engg week napaka-visible nila...magaling lang talaga sila...

sa mga new mems na napasabak agad, sana huwag kayong mapagod...
sa mga kumukulo ang dugo sa kabila, hinay lang... sana maintindahan ninyo ang puntong, hindi natin kinakailangang makipagsabayan sa pambababoy nila... dun tayo sa rason, sa prinsipyo. wag na lang natin sila pansinin, at sa halip ay ibuhos ang ating lakas sa lalong pagpapaganda sa ating ngalan... mas magandang armas pa rin kasi ang rason, kung alam mong nasa tama ka, anong laban nila db?

there's a difference from being the "best we can be" from being the "best among the rest". One is more rewarding. and we don't always have to be the best among the rest... EXCELLENCE above all!