just one blunt comment was all i needed to hurl me back to reality and make me realize i've been reacting incorrectly - in such a way to invite not avoid them... that night the stars twinkled...

ride the waves but don't let the current control you...
don't let your guard down if you're not ready to be exposed...
danger lurks out in the open, so be prepared...
and if you should fall, get up...
withdraw and fallback, then reinforce your walls...

i got carried away... thanks for the reality check...
... this is why i'm becoming numb...boo me! but i can't deal...i'd really rather not...