i don't need this...

or maybe i do... but really, the additional emotional burden is heavier and is more cumbersome than all the stress and toxic stuff in my life right now.... i didn't think i'd feel this or encounter this kind of conflict again... i'm not sure when was the last i felt this... probably because most of the relationships i have established so far are superficial? not exactly... i tend to really stay away/avoid conflict or confront conflict at least. i've grown accustomed to the mindset that things will pass eventually... but i really don't know what's unique about this situation that it burdens me on the emotional level... i really hope this will pass... it's just the second day of the week (second for me) and already i can't wait for the weekend and hoping for a really relaxing break... Help me God. the weekend trip didn't do much to rejuvenate me... yes, i enjoyed it but i need a looooong break to destress and unwind... argh i'm so down right now. Unfortunately this is nothing of the boy-girl relationship conflict (not sure if i should say i wish either). guess for some mababaw pro friends are as important pa rin naman eh... hopefully the friendship is worth all these worry, etc... i think i need a temporary change of environment/fresh air so that this issue won't suffocate me much...